I've been through so much in the last 3 years. A major break up from my ex of 10 years while I was pregnant with our second child, last year I found out I had cancer and I've just finished treatment a few months ago. I didn't think it affected me much. I was so happy to have it all over with but I'm finding now that I'm really cranky with my kids (2 and 4) I'm really impatient and fly off the handle over the smallest things. Today both kids have been a bit naughty but I just went off the deep end and now I'm feeling like such a shitty parent. I think I need to talk to someone about everything that's going through my head. Where do I start? Who do I see? Will talking to a professional help? I need to do something because it's not fair on my children that I'm so cranky all the time!!! My 4 year old even said to me the other night 'I wish you would go back to being the old mummy' it broke my heart but it's the truth. I wish I could go back to the old me too. The thing is after the break up I was a mess. It took me 2 years to start to feel like myself again and I was in a really good place. I was happy and had adjusted to single life with the kids and no sooner I got to this place I found outhis about the cancer. Now I feel like I'm right back to where I started :(
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Go to your GP, they can help you and can refer you to appropriate services for your situation. Counseling of different types, including CBT has really helped me. I'm a single mum who cares for my disabled son. Go, try it, it's not immediate and you often have to do some homework (set goals etc) but if you don't go you won't know.
Sounds like you have been through an awful lot, no wonder you are feeling fragile! I think talking to a professional would be good, they do help even if it's just to debrief and get things off your chest. All the best you sound like a really strong person xx