I just feel so overwhelmed and cannot seem to pick myself up. So a few months ago I posted on here regarding my husband who had become completely self centred and selfish after his Traumatic Brain Injury. After months of battling, constant fighting (and making up) we decided that being a family is much more important than any dilemma we have with one another. We have both been proactive in making some awesome changes and I can safely say that we are both happy (most days =) )
Part of the changes have been for me to find part time work to take some pressure off him, as it's been very hard to hold down a job since his brain injury. Being out of work for the past 5 years I'm finding it really hard. I have applied everywhere and anywhere online and in person. It's always the same story of being 'regretfully informed that my application had not been successful'. Despite my denial at times I honestly feel like I have depression. I cannot focus on anything for too long. I have enrolled in several different courses however can't stick to it. Not having the time with three under school age children I just can't seem to do anything right. I'm often told by my husband and close family that I'm filled with anger and frustration and snap very easily which I can somewhat agree to. I have underlying issues with my own family and lack of support I've had growing up which I'm only just realising now that I'm in my mid 20s. I do resent them. I hate how I was raised and remember having so many issues growing up that id bring to my mothers attention (such as bullying) looking back she never did a damn thing. I remember growing up with my troublesome siblings who always had some issue that would somehow impact me as my parents had no filter in our house. Despite being so young I had always known so many issues that I shouldn't of. My dad cheating, our financial issues, my brothers teenage and police issues. I had no fricking childhood and had to fend for myself at such an early age and I'm only just realising now! 'Behind every success is a great story of support' a FB meme that really struck me. I don't even know what I'm asking. Just wish that shit wouldn't always be so hard!
Venting
Venting
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Life Lessons, Mental Health, Anxiety & Depression
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I'm going to give the same advice I did last time. Being a carer (which you are) is hard work and a huge adjustment emotionally etc. you absolutely need your own mental health care plan, your own psychologist etc. get yourself off to your GP x
Big hugs xx you sound like an amazing wife and mother and have had to overcome so much in your life already! If you want someone to talk to please feel free to pm me just let me know and I can give you my e mail :(
I grew up in a very similar environment, I was the oldest and had to take care of everybody else in the family. My husband has been dealing with chronic depression and anxiety for maybe the last year and a half. I went and saw my GP about how stressed I'm feeling with everything going on in my life and she set up a mental health care plan for me and I'm seeing a counsellor as part of that. Tomorrow is my second session. I think it could help you too if you're interested. They can also help you brainstorm some ways you can take better care of you. I wrote into the imperfect Mum a few weeks ago and it wasn't until I read the replies that I realised that I'm exhausted because I'm a carer for my husband on top of everything else going on. Some of the IM's suggested joining a support group for carers either online or in my local community.