Ok, I just need reassurance. I need to know I'm doing the right thing.. That even though it's hard it's worth it and that my kids my beautiful beautiful kids will be ok :'( suffering with terrible guilt being a single parent working full time. I only have one full day with my darlings and one half day. I'm hoping to change this is have 2 full days and one half day with them. And I wake up with them and go to bed with them.. I do as much as I can with them. My time with them is devoted to them. When they Arnt with me, they are with my mum.. And there dad has them 2 nights a week.
I am just sooo wrecked with guilt. I'm only 25 ( with a 4 year old and 2 year old ) trying to build my career so that I can provide for them.
Please, I just need reassurance.. :(
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Don't be so hard on yourself! I have a husband and I only get 2 full days with my little kids and in that time we still have to do washing etc.. You are doing the best you can for your situation. It isn't like the old days where mums don't have to work, dads provide for the family and everything is reasonably priced. We now live in a world where mums work and kids are cared for by the community (be it parents, day care aunts or friends). Don't be guilty, you sound like you are doing your best :)
You're fine, sweetheart, honestly. If your kids are happy, then you don't need to change anything. Between time with you, time with your mum and time with their dad, it sounds like they get to spend a lot of time with family, and a lot of kids don't even get that. It sounds like you love them dearly and are trying your best to provide them with a good life and a good home. It sounds like you're a good mum. Give yourself a break, okay? Instead of worrying about what you might be doing wrong, focus on what you're doing right. Being a mum is hard enough without torturing yourself :) Take care xox
Think about what a great example and role model you are being for them. You are showing them that (a) a young woman can be independent and provide for her family (b) you can pursue a career even after you have kids (c) responsibilities and commitment are just part of life. I'm in the same boat but I try to envisage my daughter growing up and being proud of her Mum who achieved well in her career and provided for everyone. I know how easy it is to feel guilty though! The best thing you can do for your kids is take care of their mum (you!), which means going easy on yourself, being kind to yourself and knowing that you're doing the absolute best you can for them!
Do what's best for you. But seriously sit back and think about it, I so regret going back to work so soon and wished I had stayed home until the kids started school, I missed out on so much and you can't get that time back and when I look back I would of been better off financially if I had stayed home. And I was always stressed.