Hello imperfect Mum's.
I have a 4 yo son & a 2 yo little girl. Ever since I was a teenager I've suffered anxiety disorders. When my son was born it became unmanageable & I was put on Zoloft by my doctor. I'm still on it to this day. Recently I had a cancer scare & so has my brother. We're both waiting on biopsy results (mine was abnormal papsmear & his is worse - possible lip cancer). Ever since the cancer scares, every moment of my life is consumed by the awful c word - cancer. If my anxiety was bad before, it's sky rocketed now. Every single day I wake up convinced that cancer is somewhere in my body. I'm constantly poking & prodding at my breasts, doing a self examination for any unusual lumps. If a certain part of one of my breasts becomes tender, I instantly panic that it must be cancer. My left nipple inverts more than my left, but retracts with stimulation, yet I panic that it's a sign of breast cancer. I'm consumed. Every spare moment I have to think, I worry that I have cancer! A single twinge of pain anywhere in my body & I start racking my brain for which cancer it could be. I can't take it anymore. I'm stressed, anxious, paranoid, finding myself with a short temper. I can't live like this, so what can I do to stop convincing myself that I'm going to get or have the scary C word?! :(
The scary C word
The scary C word
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It may help to have your medication adjusted for awhile. Go speak to your GP and talk to them. Also someone to help you talk through this scary time. Sometimes just being able to blurt out your fears in a safe place makes things seem so much better. Have you done mindfulness therapy before?
This has obviously triggered an increase or relapse of anxiety with possible OCD tendencies ( the constant checking/poking etc). Please see your dr, reassess your medication and look at getting some psychological assistance. My best wishes to you and I hope that yourself and your brother are okay xxxx