good morning everyone,
I Don't know really what to say or write, I guess I need to vent and get help.
I'm a mum of a 6 year old that is at school, and well it seem I'm stuck in a vicious cycle that I cant seem to break, I live with my daughter and brother (brother not my choice but he has no where to go) I spend my days cleaning the house which I shouldn't have to do as its a small two bedroom place but it takes me an hour or so to do, I try every day and apply for work but I just cant seem to get a call back or even an interview. have plenty of certificates from hospitality to business to age care even IT. but its not helping. I use to work and exercise and enjoy life but now I just cant be bothered any more. every time I try things blow up in my face and i wonder what's the point.
my family make it out to be so easy to get a job and live life but when your a single mum living in a state where the highest unemployment is its not an easy task,
I try and fill my days with meaning full things like learning something new e.g sewing knitting crafts but its not making me happy or making me whole.
when my daughter was younger i.e. 4 I was exercising and enjoying life, i lost all my weight got down to a size 12 from a size 20 and i was working life couldn't have been better, at the time i met someone spent 1 year with them before walking in on them with another women before calling it quits there was issues in the relationship as like anyone but the cheating was what broke the camels back.
since then i feel like i have slowly dug this hole that I'm in with out realising until i looked up and though how the fuck am i going to get out.
I really need something i just don't know what.........
I'm now at the point where i could even be bother getting out of bed to take my daughter to school today, and yes i know it wrong she should be there but i really don't want to face the world, to be honest i hate the world and cant wait for it to burn.
i know I'm going to be told I'm depressed i probably am, but i don't want drugs to help i had drugs before and all it does it make me boring and mellow.
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If they made you mellow and boring they were the wrong drugs for you.
Have you done some volunteer work, in a hospital, RSPCA, meals on wheels.
Have you tried counselling and cognitive behaviour therapy?
Breathe mumma. I've been where you are. Every now and then I slip back but I've learnt to drag myself out of that hole. Don't be afraid to ask for help if you need it. Talk to a counsellor, or if you have family and friends nearby, open up to them about how you're feeling instead of pretending everything is ok. Have you tried meditation?
You've recognised that you're stuck in a rut, so now it's time to dig yourself out! Don't try to make dramatic changes, just do one little thing differently each day. Go for a walk - it doesn't have to be a long one, just around the block or up the street. Breathe fresh air into your lungs, listen to the birds, look around and see just how beautiful this world can be. Take your little girl outside and throw a ball around or pick flowers. Laugh together. Make her your reason to get through this.
Regarding your work situation (or lack of) I'm in the same position as you. There is very little work opportunities in my town, and even less when you have a couple of kids like I do! About a month ago I stumbled upon an opportunity that I am grabbing with both hands. I'm not sure if you'd be interested in joining a direct sales company (like avon, tupperware, etc.) I've never been interested in them myself, but there's a new one called Jamberry about to launch in Australia soon and I'm going to give it a go. Already, it's opened up a whole new world to me, I've met some lovely, supportive ladies who are also planning on becoming consultants. You don't even have to do in-home parties if you don't feel confident enough, you can do only online parties if you choose, and many woman in America have built a very successful business with Jamberry by only doing parties online. (I'm a terrible public speaker so this really appeals to me too!) And joining right at the beginning, during the launch phase gives a huge advantage! You can email me if you'd like to know more, or even if you just need someone to talk to, you can contact me at rockmyjamz at gmail dot com
Be strong mumma, you can get through this!