About a month ago I wrote in about my abnormal papsmear. Well I've since had my colposcopy and I'm waiting on the results. The gyno said he could definitely see high grade abnormalities & took a small biopsy. It was tiny & I expected him to take more but he didn't. Now I am waiting a month before going to see him for the results & to discuss what's next. I am medicated for high levels of anxiety & panic attacks, so I found the colposcopy quite uncomfortable & invasive, as expected, but I also had very high anxiety levels over it. It's been a week. I barely bled, I recovered just perfectly, & last night my partner & I returned to sex for the first time since my cervix has healed. My concern is that I couldn't enjoy it like I used to. I used to have a really high sex drive, like a man lol. Now it's almost gone. All I could think about during sex was the last time I had something going on down there, which was the colposcopy, & I just felt invaded again. My partner was gentle & caring, but it didn't stop me worrying. I also worried about the abnormal cells as they haven't been removed yet. Is this normal? Will my sex drive return? Will I be able to relax & enjoy love making with my man again? I know this is psychological & I need to tell myself to relax, but it's harder said than done when I found the whole ordeal very frightening. Were other IM's like this afterwards & how did you overcome your anxiety? TIA.
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