We have 4 beautiful children, we own our 3 bedroom house but live off almost nothing.
I know perfectly well we can't have another baby, it would be completely irresponsible knowing we can't afford to bring another child into the world. It doesn't stop me wanting one though. I have said for so long I'm done especially now my baby is 3.5 years. He's a handful so happy not to include a baby into our lives. But recently I've felt different, I've felt like I'm not done. I would like to be pregnant. I'd like to do it again. Feel those kicks, go through labour the way I want to, I'd have a water birth, I'd go drug free again. I would do delayed clamping all those things that I didn't know about before.
But I wont. No more babies, no more breastfeeding, no more sleepless nights up feeding.
Just needed to share, someone out there will understand
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Yes i understand your feelings. As sick as i get when pregnant i love it so much i would have a 4th in a heart beat but 3 is enough for hubby. Our youngest is 18mths and every miles stone he passes i grieve alittle more knowing thats the last time. Hubby used to make fun of me but he does understand, his more looking forward to when our kids are more independant.