Please call Lifeline 13 11 14 to start with and talk to one of the volunteers there. Call a friend and tell them, ask them to come and be with you for a while, you don't have to talk about how you're feeling necessarily, just have someone there. Ask them to help you - they don't have to be there all the time, just check in with you. Then on Monday make an appointment with your GP and ask for a mental health plan with subsidised counseling sessions.
What's happening for you that you want to commit suicide?
I have been there. The only way things can get better is if you make them. No matter what it is that is causing your depression you can choose to be consumed by it or to fight back. I promise it's worth the fight. And one day when you are loving life you will look back on this day appreciate just how good you are feeling because you know what rock bottom feels like. If you dont feel comfortable speaking on the phone there are services (from memory lifeline is one) who offer online chat.
I have been there. I was trying to find enough money to hire a baby sitter so I could go. My daughter came out to me and saw me crying when she said "it's ok mummy, it's ok to be sad but remember tomorrow is another day and it will be a better one" (she had no idea what I was planning it was just a from the mouths of babes situation), the plan vanished when I realised she was right. Tomorrow didnt come straight away, it took time and help over a couple of years. Give lifeline a call, tell them what's going on. Call a friend, relative or just go out for a little while because I can guarantee you now, once you do it you will never get better but if you don't you will get better with the right resources. Don't leave this earth yet, you have so much more to offer you just don't see it yet. Go see your gp and get help. If you can't hold off that long call your local hospital and go get help from them. Once you reach out you will see that maybe tomorrow is there not always in sight but its there, it won't be as quick but it is there, and tomorrow is a new day and it will be better.
I have been there. I was trying to find enough money to hire a baby sitter so I could go. My daughter came out to me and saw me crying when she said "it's ok mummy, it's ok to be sad but remember tomorrow is another day and it will be a better one" (she had no idea what I was planning it was just a from the mouths of babes situation), the plan vanished when I realised she was right. Tomorrow didnt come straight away, it took time and help over a couple of years. Give lifeline a call, tell them what's going on. Call a friend, relative or just go out for a little while because I can guarantee you now, once you do it you will never get better but if you don't you will get better with the right resources. Don't leave this earth yet, you have so much more to offer you just don't see it yet. Go see your gp and get help. If you can't hold off that long call your local hospital and go get help from them. Once you reach out you will see that maybe tomorrow is there not always in sight but its there, it won't be as quick but it is there, and tomorrow is a new day and it will be better.
Oh honey I'm so sorry you feel this way. It is so tough when everything feels so terrible and you feel like this. I know exactly how you feel. I have felt like this off and on for 14 years and it is so hard. Let me just say that lifeline is a good resource for when you are feeling this way as they can help you get through the immediate feeling so call them every time you are feeling similar to this. Also please pm me if you are keen...I know how you feel bad am happy to talk with you.
Please know that how you feel means something. Xx
You need to talk to someone. You are so so SO amazing for writing in and seeking help. Talking is the best therapy! Be open, express your feelings. For whatever is going on, you deserve to be here. Sending loads of hugs your way. Just know, you are not alone xoxo
I've been there, I've written that letter. You move past this by taking life one hour at a time. You make yourself a snack or cup of tea and you focus on just finishing that tea. You choose a movie or tv show that you've wanted to watch and you focus just on watching that show. You take a shower and change into clean clothes and focus on just the feel of the warm water, the scent of your soap or body wash and then you moisturise and put on something comfortable. Then you focus on one household task - just pick up any dirty clothes and put on a load of washing. Just pick up any dirty dishes and wash them, slowly and deliberately. You breath. You focus on just one task at a time and soon you will find the day is over. Make yourself a written list if it helps. And you take tomorrow when it comes. As others have suggested, call Lifeline or go see your GP or call a friend or family. One hour at a time will become one day at a time. Then one day at a time will become one week at a time. You will plan things in a calendar - future birthdays or movies you're waiting to see or someone you want to catch up with on a coffee date or shopping you need to do to replace an old pair or shoes - it doesn't matter what it is - you will plan ahead just one thing at a time. And before you know it weeks have come months. That's how you move past it. For now - breath. The saying "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary situation" is something I told myself every day, at first several times a day. Then you will find your situation will change. Your outlook on life will change. You will make plans, find direction and find someone to help you. Please see your GP for the basics - there are so many medical conditions that can affect our mental health, from sleep apnea to anemia.. I don't know your situation but it doesn't matter - if there's a physical ailment that's affecting you please see your doctor so that you can then focus on moving forward. Better days ahead. <3
I feel your pain darl. I honestly do. As someone who has done exactly what you have done. Writing a letter etc. I did talk to people. But my thoughts were "how is it fair to continue just to make others happy". But trust me. Keep talking to someone. Talk to lifeline etc. Keep talking to them hourly , daily etc. It does end up helping xxxx
Like so many others, I've been there, too. The thing you need to remember about this feeling is that it's not really that you want to die, it's that you want the pain to end, yeah?
And you dying would only transfer that pain to the people who love you - and believe me, they do. I know you don't want them to live with the pain of not being able to save you for the rest of their lives.
You need to talk to somebody. To lots of somebodies. To everybody who will listen. If you believe you are a danger to yourself, then the best thing for you to do is to present at the emergency room at your closest hospital and explain your situation. If you don't feel able to tell them, take the note you wrote with you and hand it to them at the counter. Do it now. It doesn't matter if you have a meeting to go to, if you have to make dinner, if you have to take your kids to sports after school. None of that matters. The ONLY thing that matters right now is YOU.
I could sit here and write a million different things, sweetheart, but there's no need. Just go to the hospital and let someone take care of you for a change xox
Hi there. Please please get help. My father in law committed suicide in 2011 And to this day not a day has passed where we didn't think about it. There are so many unanswered questions and we will live with this for the rest of our life. His suicide had a big impact on us and we partly blame ourselves for what he did. We are torn between anger, sadness and moments of reluctant acceptance. This event has overshadowed every single happy event in our lives. There must be another way for you. I urge you not to do it. It cannot be undone. Please!!!! All the best!!!! Xx
Reading this makes me so sad that you are feeling so low to consider to take your own life. Please go to your gp asap and explain how your feeling. Ending your life isnt a solution to no more pain as it leaves your loved ones in an enormous amount of pain that never leaves them. Your not a burden on them at all as i'm sure you are their world regardless if some days arn't great ones they are still days that they love you for all you are. Please i beg you to seek help as i know the feelings of losing a mum to suicide. Its a pain that stays forever.
It really saddens me to read all your posts, Please try and reach out to family and friends, yes I know you may feel that you don't want to burden us with your problems, but trust me we are there to help :) my brother took his own life and I don't live a day without thinking of him, he has left behind so many beautiful people who love and miss him dearly x thinking of you xx
This is not your fault! The way you feel is a physical and very real medical issue! It isn't because you are weak....not strong enough! You just need some help.....and it is ok to ask!!! I have suffered with secret depression for over 30 years thinking it was my cross to bear and mine alone to deal with. Boy I was wrong! When I finally accepted it as nit a flaw and got help....the world looked so much different! All it took was taking an antidepressant. I have tried going off it a few times and I just plumeted back so I have realized it is just like taking a blood pressure med or something else for health. For me it is lifelong but it means I can function better....be a better person to myself...and others. ......and d enjoy life! You can get there! I promise! Just ask for help anyway you can!
This is not your fault! The way you feel is a physical and very real medical issue! It isn't because you are weak....not strong enough! You just need some help.....and it is ok to ask!!! I have suffered with secret depression for over 30 years thinking it was my cross to bear and mine alone to deal with. Boy I was wrong! When I finally accepted it as nit a flaw and got help....the world looked so much different! All it took was taking an antidepressant. I have tried going off it a few times and I just plumeted back so I have realized it is just like taking a blood pressure med or something else for health. For me it is lifelong but it means I can function better....be a better person to myself...and others. ......and d enjoy life! You can get there! I promise! Just ask for help anyway you can!
Please go and get help.. we know first hand what it's like to lose somebody in this way & let me tell you it's devestatingly heartbreaking. You don't realise how loved you are and how much you will be missed even if it doesn't feel like that right now. There is support options out there , remember tomorrow is a new day & when you wake you just may have a better outlook on life, & be thankful you are still with your loved ones. Sending prayers and thoughts strength your way. Xx
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Please call Lifeline 13 11 14 to start with and talk to one of the volunteers there. Call a friend and tell them, ask them to come and be with you for a while, you don't have to talk about how you're feeling necessarily, just have someone there. Ask them to help you - they don't have to be there all the time, just check in with you. Then on Monday make an appointment with your GP and ask for a mental health plan with subsidised counseling sessions.
What's happening for you that you want to commit suicide?
I have been there. The only way things can get better is if you make them. No matter what it is that is causing your depression you can choose to be consumed by it or to fight back. I promise it's worth the fight. And one day when you are loving life you will look back on this day appreciate just how good you are feeling because you know what rock bottom feels like. If you dont feel comfortable speaking on the phone there are services (from memory lifeline is one) who offer online chat.
I have been there. I was trying to find enough money to hire a baby sitter so I could go. My daughter came out to me and saw me crying when she said "it's ok mummy, it's ok to be sad but remember tomorrow is another day and it will be a better one" (she had no idea what I was planning it was just a from the mouths of babes situation), the plan vanished when I realised she was right. Tomorrow didnt come straight away, it took time and help over a couple of years. Give lifeline a call, tell them what's going on. Call a friend, relative or just go out for a little while because I can guarantee you now, once you do it you will never get better but if you don't you will get better with the right resources. Don't leave this earth yet, you have so much more to offer you just don't see it yet. Go see your gp and get help. If you can't hold off that long call your local hospital and go get help from them. Once you reach out you will see that maybe tomorrow is there not always in sight but its there, it won't be as quick but it is there, and tomorrow is a new day and it will be better.
I have been there. I was trying to find enough money to hire a baby sitter so I could go. My daughter came out to me and saw me crying when she said "it's ok mummy, it's ok to be sad but remember tomorrow is another day and it will be a better one" (she had no idea what I was planning it was just a from the mouths of babes situation), the plan vanished when I realised she was right. Tomorrow didnt come straight away, it took time and help over a couple of years. Give lifeline a call, tell them what's going on. Call a friend, relative or just go out for a little while because I can guarantee you now, once you do it you will never get better but if you don't you will get better with the right resources. Don't leave this earth yet, you have so much more to offer you just don't see it yet. Go see your gp and get help. If you can't hold off that long call your local hospital and go get help from them. Once you reach out you will see that maybe tomorrow is there not always in sight but its there, it won't be as quick but it is there, and tomorrow is a new day and it will be better.
Oh honey I'm so sorry you feel this way. It is so tough when everything feels so terrible and you feel like this. I know exactly how you feel. I have felt like this off and on for 14 years and it is so hard. Let me just say that lifeline is a good resource for when you are feeling this way as they can help you get through the immediate feeling so call them every time you are feeling similar to this. Also please pm me if you are keen...I know how you feel bad am happy to talk with you.
Please know that how you feel means something. Xx
You need to talk to someone. You are so so SO amazing for writing in and seeking help. Talking is the best therapy! Be open, express your feelings. For whatever is going on, you deserve to be here. Sending loads of hugs your way. Just know, you are not alone xoxo
I've been there, I've written that letter. You move past this by taking life one hour at a time. You make yourself a snack or cup of tea and you focus on just finishing that tea. You choose a movie or tv show that you've wanted to watch and you focus just on watching that show. You take a shower and change into clean clothes and focus on just the feel of the warm water, the scent of your soap or body wash and then you moisturise and put on something comfortable. Then you focus on one household task - just pick up any dirty clothes and put on a load of washing. Just pick up any dirty dishes and wash them, slowly and deliberately. You breath. You focus on just one task at a time and soon you will find the day is over. Make yourself a written list if it helps. And you take tomorrow when it comes. As others have suggested, call Lifeline or go see your GP or call a friend or family. One hour at a time will become one day at a time. Then one day at a time will become one week at a time. You will plan things in a calendar - future birthdays or movies you're waiting to see or someone you want to catch up with on a coffee date or shopping you need to do to replace an old pair or shoes - it doesn't matter what it is - you will plan ahead just one thing at a time. And before you know it weeks have come months. That's how you move past it. For now - breath. The saying "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary situation" is something I told myself every day, at first several times a day. Then you will find your situation will change. Your outlook on life will change. You will make plans, find direction and find someone to help you. Please see your GP for the basics - there are so many medical conditions that can affect our mental health, from sleep apnea to anemia.. I don't know your situation but it doesn't matter - if there's a physical ailment that's affecting you please see your doctor so that you can then focus on moving forward. Better days ahead. <3
I feel your pain darl. I honestly do. As someone who has done exactly what you have done. Writing a letter etc. I did talk to people. But my thoughts were "how is it fair to continue just to make others happy". But trust me. Keep talking to someone. Talk to lifeline etc. Keep talking to them hourly , daily etc. It does end up helping xxxx
Like so many others, I've been there, too. The thing you need to remember about this feeling is that it's not really that you want to die, it's that you want the pain to end, yeah?
And you dying would only transfer that pain to the people who love you - and believe me, they do. I know you don't want them to live with the pain of not being able to save you for the rest of their lives.
You need to talk to somebody. To lots of somebodies. To everybody who will listen. If you believe you are a danger to yourself, then the best thing for you to do is to present at the emergency room at your closest hospital and explain your situation. If you don't feel able to tell them, take the note you wrote with you and hand it to them at the counter. Do it now. It doesn't matter if you have a meeting to go to, if you have to make dinner, if you have to take your kids to sports after school. None of that matters. The ONLY thing that matters right now is YOU.
I could sit here and write a million different things, sweetheart, but there's no need. Just go to the hospital and let someone take care of you for a change xox
Hi there. Please please get help. My father in law committed suicide in 2011 And to this day not a day has passed where we didn't think about it. There are so many unanswered questions and we will live with this for the rest of our life. His suicide had a big impact on us and we partly blame ourselves for what he did. We are torn between anger, sadness and moments of reluctant acceptance. This event has overshadowed every single happy event in our lives. There must be another way for you. I urge you not to do it. It cannot be undone. Please!!!! All the best!!!! Xx
Reading this makes me so sad that you are feeling so low to consider to take your own life. Please go to your gp asap and explain how your feeling. Ending your life isnt a solution to no more pain as it leaves your loved ones in an enormous amount of pain that never leaves them. Your not a burden on them at all as i'm sure you are their world regardless if some days arn't great ones they are still days that they love you for all you are. Please i beg you to seek help as i know the feelings of losing a mum to suicide. Its a pain that stays forever.
It really saddens me to read all your posts, Please try and reach out to family and friends, yes I know you may feel that you don't want to burden us with your problems, but trust me we are there to help :) my brother took his own life and I don't live a day without thinking of him, he has left behind so many beautiful people who love and miss him dearly x thinking of you xx
This is not your fault! The way you feel is a physical and very real medical issue! It isn't because you are weak....not strong enough! You just need some help.....and it is ok to ask!!! I have suffered with secret depression for over 30 years thinking it was my cross to bear and mine alone to deal with. Boy I was wrong! When I finally accepted it as nit a flaw and got help....the world looked so much different! All it took was taking an antidepressant. I have tried going off it a few times and I just plumeted back so I have realized it is just like taking a blood pressure med or something else for health. For me it is lifelong but it means I can function better....be a better person to myself...and others. ......and d enjoy life! You can get there! I promise! Just ask for help anyway you can!
This is not your fault! The way you feel is a physical and very real medical issue! It isn't because you are weak....not strong enough! You just need some help.....and it is ok to ask!!! I have suffered with secret depression for over 30 years thinking it was my cross to bear and mine alone to deal with. Boy I was wrong! When I finally accepted it as nit a flaw and got help....the world looked so much different! All it took was taking an antidepressant. I have tried going off it a few times and I just plumeted back so I have realized it is just like taking a blood pressure med or something else for health. For me it is lifelong but it means I can function better....be a better person to myself...and others. ......and d enjoy life! You can get there! I promise! Just ask for help anyway you can!
Please go and get help.. we know first hand what it's like to lose somebody in this way & let me tell you it's devestatingly heartbreaking. You don't realise how loved you are and how much you will be missed even if it doesn't feel like that right now. There is support options out there , remember tomorrow is a new day & when you wake you just may have a better outlook on life, & be thankful you are still with your loved ones. Sending prayers and thoughts strength your way. Xx
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