So I posted a week or so ago asking "How do I accept infertility"... Thank you for your suggestions of ivf, foster care etc. I will be making an appointment with the local gp next week & go from there. Remember....I AM 40!!!!! & I'm thinking this is going to be a major issue, along with the fact my husband has no children (despite trying with his ex, - & I have 2 from a previous relationship)
In the mean time, I'm struggling to deal with others pregnancies, including family, work colleagues & friends. I just can't get that green eyed monster off my back. I try to be happy & supportive for these women, but my heart breaks & I'm just totally fucking miserable :(
Depression is setting in & I don't know how to cope. This is not helping me & as much as I try, 'happy thoughts' & 'getting on with life' it just don't cut it. I try so hard to hide my feelings but my emotions show on my face as much as I don't want them too. I'm getting comments on why I'm looking so unhappy. Its affecting my daily life & all my relationships, family, friends & work. I'm just over it & as much as I love & adore my husband, he really doesn't understand. :( :( I'm a sad sad sad person atm & I don't want it to be like this :'( :'(
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Sending hugs your way. I can't offer any advice as I have only had the green-eyed monster on my shoulder for 2 weeks after losing my second tube a few months ago. Still trying to cope myself.
My sister, sister in law and bestie have all told me the great news in the last couple of weeks that they are all due end of this year/start of next. And what sucks more is I only have 3 women in my life. And it's all babies, babies, babies. Don't get me wrong, I am happy for them, but that still doesn't stop me crying myself to sleep every single night. It sucks, but you're not alone