I wrote a note..

You are one of the biggest reasons I cry. One of the only reasons.
Majority of my mental health I feel is caused because of you.
I try to talk to you, you don't listen, you always need to tell your side of the story bit refuse to listen to anyone else's.
When it comes to hurting me, and my feelings, it seems you care very little.
You say you're there for me, but you're not.
I've just lost a loved one and all you can do is scream at me. You are a wonderful, picturesque husband, aren't you? You could never do wrong.

Thank you for your lack of support. I have seen what you're really like, and I don't think you're going to get better.

It does for a little while.. Always for a little while.. And then you revert back to who you used to be.

Maybe this was the biggest, most beautiful mistake of our lives. At least we have a wonderful, amazing little girl to show for it.

I've more love for her than anyone else in the world.

I loved you like that too. And I used to be scared of losing you.. But I've grown quietly comfortable with the thought of you not being here.
I've grown comfortable without you around.. Because when you are around, I feel I'm constantly walking on shattered glass. Like anything I do.. Anything I say.. at any moment.. Could be taken the wrong way and cause another fight.
Because when you are around, I don't feel safe anymore.
Being in this relationship is taking its toll on me.. And I don't know how much longer I can take it..
I'm absolutely terrified..
I don't want to let go of what we have tried so hard to build..
But I don't know if I can cope with this anymore..

From who I used to be, to the shell of what I am now..
I can't handle you, and I don't want you to handle me.
I can save myself, but you, my dear..
You are long gone.