I've struggled with my past for so long. I've made some questionable choices from relationships (or men) to friendships to just personal decisions. When I think about all the friends I've made and lost (usually due to picking the wrong kind of friends) it makes me feel so so anxious. It churns my stomach to know what I've done and said to people (I won't get into the long story) and now I just don't know how to let go?
I know I have anxiety, but medication really isn't a choice for me. I'm even that anxious that I struggle making plans with friends and leaving the house in case I bump into people I know. I lay awake at night and think about the friends that have been and gone from my life and the problems that it's caused me. I feel like people look at me and laugh behind my back because old friends have spread rumours. Mostly I'm a happy person and very friendly to everyone but I'm sensitive and defensive and feel like I need to justify myself if anyone questions me. I have always been this way for as long as I can remember, since I was very young.
Does anyone else have any ideas on how to accept my past and move on? I have a good life now and wonderful children but everything I've experienced literally eats me up in side and I don't cope well!
Do you think hypnosis for anxiety is worth a try? Please help! I can't keep living like this.
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Go see a psychologist! Also if you are not taking meds just because it is a personal choice, give them ago. Hey really really make a huge difference and it won't believe how much better you feel. Meds should only ever be part of a treatment though, a psychologist will give you strategies to help you not let the anxiety take over you.
I feel the same way.
I hit bottom and after slamming into a few hurdles I realized I couldn't do "this" on my own.
I saw my GP and have a mental health plan. I have a formal diagnosis and can now say that I am starting to heal.
I have PTSD, GAD and depression. My life choices and decisions haven't always been top notch but you know, people who dwell on your mistakes, have a lot to loose. You have the right to get better and I want to get better.
I am on Zoloft though. Medication might be a buffer... I didn't want to go on it either but my psychologist, psychiatrist and GP said my recovery will be ten times harder and longer and more prone to failure if I didn't try it. Besides I was self medicating with over the counter analgesics with calmative factors which is not good.
See your GP and start a new journey. X
Thank you for understanding where I am coming from. It's nice in a sense that I'm not alone even though I wish you didn't have to go through it too!
I am enquiring through a psychologist who practices hypnosis and hopefully I can get a mental health plan. I believe I will be finally able to move on. I never thought it could be PTSD but it would make sense after things I've done and dealt with. I feel the anxiety makes it a million times harder, I feel literally sick at times.
I hope you are coping well xx