Since I can remember I've always worried more then most others. Everything from what people thought about me to my health.
The past 8 months its gotten worse....to the point I struggle to function most days because I convince myself there's something wrong with me.
The beginning of the year I was convinced I had a brain tumor, so I had tests that came back normal. A week or so later it was my heart with palpitations, dizziness etc. Had tests again which found a non-threatening irregularity. I began to work with it and a few weeks later I've began getting pains in the left side, arm, chest and back as well as a little tightness so now I'm stressing theres something new, possibly a clot or something. I find sometimes it goes away when I distract myself.
It seems once I accept and get over one thing, another arises.
Its not just my health but my kids health too, a simple cold and I'm freaking out about meningitis.
I worry about their safety so much so that some days I drive them to school instead of letting them catch the bus incase the driver has an accident. I even panic when trusted family members look after them.
It's had such an affect that I avoid leaving the house unless I have too, I'm too scared to work, I can't sleep and just want to rest all day.
My doctor is sick of seeing me and people notice and have mentioned my paranioa to me.
I've seen a psychologist who recommended meditation etc but I don't find it really helps and isn't always doable.
I really want to get my life back on track and start living again.
Is there anyone else like this or who has gone through it with some advice on how to deal with it long term or even to get through a shitty day? TIA :)
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Sounds like you have a really bad anxiety. I think you need to see somr professionals about it perhaps speak to your dr about it or even another dr if your dr is sick of seeing you.
I'm no professional, but it sounds like you have a severe case of anxiety disorder. This was exactly ME years ago! It got so bad I'd end up in the emergency department every second day thinking I was dying, convinced I had a blood clot, was having a stroke ect ect ect... One time the doctor even gave me a 'blood test' to rule out a blood clot, he said it all came back fine & after he said that I was fine, until I stated feeling something else was wrong with me. I later found out that there was no such thing as a blood test to rule out a blood clot & that the doctor just done what he did cos he recognised my symptoms as being anxiety and knew I wouldn't listen to home if he told me that. Which he was right. I ended up seeing a really got gp & my anxiety has been under control for years now, it took a while but I got there. Goodluck with everything IM xxx
It's a horrible thing to live with
I know this sounds odd, but it's time to tell your GP the conclusion you have drawn and ask to be referred to someone for your mental health. If you can't talk to your GP find a new one, but I'm sure your current GP would be very understanding and happy to help.
This used to be me. It came on strong after I had kids. I tried every natural remedy for years but in the end I got anxiety meds and now I feel amazing. I was to the point I had been to my dr 4 times in a few months thinking I had breast cancer, had 3 full body scans for melanoma, had called the ambulance for a heart attack. It was ruling my life. I should have gotten help sooner as the medication jas been a god send. Explain all of this to your gp. They will understand xo