This isn't a question. More of a confession that i need to get off my chest. Have a 2yr old toddler and stuck living downstairs at my parents house. My mother is so difficult to deal with and if it wasn't for my little boy I probably would have taken my own life by now. He's the only think keeping me alive.
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Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Although it seems impossible right now, things will get better in time. Trust me on this, I've been there, multiple times. Please see your GP because it sounds like you are going through a really tough time. Your GP might be able to refer you to a counsellor so you can work through these feelings. I know talking to a complete stranger about depression is hard and scary but it will be worth it, both for you and your son. Reaching out to the IM community is a great first step! I will keep you in my thoughts and I really hope things start to improve for you.
Please seek help. You can contact beyond blue for online support services, go to your gp and get a mental health plan. You are entitled to 10 free psychology sessions a year through Medicare and your gp can start you on an antidepressant. Maybe talk to your mum too and tell her how you're feeling. My husband recently attempted suicide and It's been so hard for us all, but it has especially effected our toddler who has been a mess since. He spent a few months in an acute mental health facility and after psychotherapy, several changes in medications and regular ECT he is slowly starting to feel better. There is help out there, and it will take time but I promise you it's worth it. I beg you to get some help. I know it's hard but your little boy needs you.