Hey sisters.
I suffer really bad Anxiety to the point of chestpains!
A little background info, i will keep it short.
I was in a DV relationship for 4yrs, when i had 'run away', i found out i was pregnant & never went back. Id changed my number, deleted facebook, left everything but the clothes on my back behind & moved states.. Everything seemed perfect except for the fact the first 3 months of my pregnancy was hidden incase people started questioning dates & he found out.
I have no one on my Son's birthcertificate and i will randomly have a panic attack over someone finding it (even tho its hidden at my mothers), or ill have one over someone finding out my boy is his & telling him, i send myself into a mess over thinking of ways to tell my baby his DNA donor is a monster.
But ....
Lately the terrible 2's have kicked in & i find myself fighting with my Son to eat, sleep, get a bum change, get dressed, get in & out of the car, to help clean his toys (we are learning early), to bath & than to get out (he will fight it till its cold).. The fighting is to the point of a tantrum that involves throwing himself around, squeeling & screaming. A few times his attacked (biting, hitting, headbutting) me and i find myself reminded of his Donor (for choice of a nice word) & it causes a panic attack to the point im having chest pains for hours.
Ive tried controlled breathing, ive seen a councellor about it, ive tried meditation. Im at a loss of how to stop these attacks so i dont loose my mind ! .
Thanks
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Go back speak to your GP. Get your mental health care plan done and see if some medication is appropriate. Also ask for an appointment for your son to see a child psychologist. Not because I think there is anything wrong with your son but because your psychologist can help you work through this stuff, give some strategies that keep you calm while you are in the situation.