anonymous please
just wondering what the symptoms of anxiety are.
I got out of a long abusive relationship about two years ago. I was with my ex since I was 16 (I fell pregnant at 16 as well) and he was extremely violent throughout the whole relationship.... On the night I decided to leave he snapped really bad and attempted to stab our son and myself I was also pregnant at the time. I managed to lock us in a room and phone police (something I was always afraid of doing), I moved towns and he went to jail for it. However he is now released has been for months but I am constantly anxious because I'm scared he is going to find us.... I can never leave any of my doors unlocked or the front door open as I'm petrified he will run in, i only get about 4 hours sleep a night and during the 4hours I have the same dream that he is standing at my door with a knife... The rest of the night I spend triple checking all the doors and windows... And I'm left feeling so anxious it makes me so sick and like I just have vomit sitting in my throat. I'm not looking for a diagnosis I just don't want to go to a doctor and be told I'm basically a sook.
Thankyou for any feedback. Xx
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Sounds to me like you might be suffering post traumatic stress disorder. I wouldn't be at all surprised given you have been through so much. You are certainly not a sook and no doctor worth their salt would think that. I'd go to a gp and have a chat. You've been through a lot xx
time to go to your doctor, you are not being a sook.
Definitely not a sook and I totally understand... I have been through this and have had to put up security cameras. It makes me feel a little more safe. They have forced him to pull his head in to some extent as all angles of my house are covered. I used to have my keys and phone attached to me ALL the time and used to get panic attacks if my phone battery was below a certain charge %. Definately speak to your GP. I'm sorry you are going through this :-( It is horrible to feel this way let alone in your own home... Best of luck darl.
I completely agree with the other posters. You are far from being a sook, you're essentially protecting your family and yourself. You have been through a traumatic experience with the last incident, but you have also endured violence for some time before that. Have you got a support network that you can rely on? (Family or friends close by?) Do you have a safety plan in place and ultimately, do you have a family violence intervention order is place to protect you and your children? I would suggest going to you GP and discussing your concerns, I would also contemplate going to the police and discussing your concerns and perhaps they can register you for the support networks. I am wishing you all the best for both you and your children- stay safe and take care.