Before I fell pregnant with my second I started a traineeship in medical ultrasound. I'd been looking for years for this job and finally got it. Few weeks later I found out I was expecting (very bad timing). Unfortunately the requirements of the traineeship (full time work and part time post graduate study) meant that I had to quit and postpone it , as I would not be eligible for maternity leave. So I'm due to restart the traineeship in January, I'll have a 3 year old and a 6 month old baby.
The problem is I'm having serious anxiety about going back. It is extremely intense work with a huge workload, there is sooo much to learn and so much pressure. My boss said from the start it would be extremely hard, especially with two young children.
There is absolutely no option to do it part time. It's a total of 2 years. Then I will be placed full time.
What do I do. Do I risk losing my traineeship by not going back (I'd been looking for 4 years, they are extremely competitive and hard to obtain), or do I go back and potentially not handle the huge work load +motherhood.
The money is great, and my parents are constantly hounding me to go back and finish it etc.
I feel so stressed!
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Surely it's better to try it than not. Trying and it not working out seems a far better option than not giving it a go at all. Your parents sound very supportive so perhaps they are happy to help ease the pressure.
Understandably you are stressed and a bit worried. I think though you go back and try it and if it doesn't work out it doesn't. It's sounds like your family are willing to help and support and I'm sure your partner will too.
It might be better to try, then regret later not trying.