I'm so sick off my addictive personality!!
Quick run down... Married, few kids, life is pretty good. As soon as I hit adulthood I started smoking and smoking pot. It's something my hubby and I have always done. Then when kids came along I quit pot but replaced it with alcohol. I feel like I shouldn't be this person that relies on such substances but I just enjoy it at the time. I'm drinking so much!! I wake up every morning and know that I am over the limit yet have to drive as I have to get kids to school and get to work.
Every morning I wake up and say to my self that I won't drink or smoke today but then the afternoon comes. I pour a drink and that's where it starts. I just don't stop.
I feel like I'm wasting years of my life, I'm drinking away the time I should be spending with my children. I feel guilty every day.
I recently quit smoking but lately been having a few again as hubby is still smoking. Hubby doesn't seem to have any reason to cut back on drinks or smokes.
I guess I'm wanting to hear from people that have been there and how they have moved on. I really want to change but can't seem to stick to it...
Addictive personality.. Please help!!
Addictive personality.. Please help!!
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I am a binge eater, which is a kind of an addiction. It's taken me a long time to get it under control. What really helped was a psychologist and identifying triggers and creating new behaviours. So for me that was not having binge foods in the house (alcohol in your case), learning a new behaviour instead of eating (for me going for a walk).
Please please find an AA meeting in your local area today and start on the road to recovery before you rationalise a way out of it in your mind. Do not strap your kids into that car over the limit ever again. Get someone to drive them, pay for a bus, catch a cab, walk. You have options and need to use them. You could seriously kill yourself, your kids or an innocent bystander. Make a decision today that you won't do that again. Even if it is difficult to say no to a drink at this stage, you are not addicted to driving under the influence. You can certainly stop that right away. Please be wise about this.
Hugs to you x
No judgement here, we all have our struggles, but my parents were/are alcoholics so I can only offer the perspective of a child who has to live with it.
I still have a lot of resentment towards them but especially mother. I can still remember being in the car when she hit a guide rail and crashed the car after having a few. I was about 10. The drinking never slowed and eventually all they did was go to work then come home and drink. They completely disengaged. Two loving, family orientated parents just switched off. During my teenage years I would never be home because my mother would embarass me in front of my friends. By 13 I was going to parties drinking every weekend. They never noticed. By 17 I was skipping school for weeks at a time, home once a week, failing school. They didn't notice. My little sister was pregnant at 14. All 3 of us had move out before our 18th birthdays. My mum aged terribly from all the drinking. I'm 28 now and she still embarrasses me. She now drunk facebooks every night making awkward comments on mine and my friends posts.
I'm not sure how old your kids are but I guarantee this will be impacting them in some way.
I have been diagnosed with addictve personality disorder. I used to smoke and because of my asthma had to quit. I highly recommend the spray by nicorette I think it is patches didn't work. As for the drinking I've been there. I was put in a mental hospital and had child services enter my life that was my wake up call. I had depression and didn't know. I suggest seeking help from a doctor or family members if possible before you endanger yourself or children even more. I still occasionally drink mainly when stressed as I'm still learning one day at a time but no where near where I was. Best of luck to you.