Friendship anxiety. Questioning friendships?

Anon Imperfect Mum

Friendship anxiety. Questioning friendships?

Do you ever question your friendships? My self esteem is in the gutter due to weight gain, peri menopause and general feeling s-**t about myself. I am questioning all my friendships. Ie do they actually like me, what do I bring to the friendship, are we only friends because of our kids etc. I don’t have many “best friends”. I just have a group of women who we get together in groups because of kids/history etc but no real deep connections. I’m feeling lost and lonely.

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Anon Imperfect Mum

Im not sure its weight gain and perimenopause as I have the same problems. I think the issue is finding the right people..

I keep my circle very very small. I have friends who I hang with once in a blue moon but only one I consider close. I would be looking for your closest friend and working on that relationship outside of the group or looking to see if you have a strong family connection e.g. sister.

Tbh I think other people are mostly driven by consumerism and I am also not a competitive person by nature which majority of people are, so I avoid. I can like people but feel they possess different values to me.

I used to be what I considered really soft and kind hearted but after being stomped on multiple times by the greedy masses.. the only way I can protect myself is to get away from others. I feel I try to hide away behind my weight gain as ridiculous as that sounds. It's an excuse to isolate further.

I find as soon as I try to connect with other people, they see someone they can use in some way. We have become another link in the consumerism chain. I am not depressed, I just cannot handle being drained.

As my close friend and I keep saying "people are just too peopley" lol.

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