I miss my mum

I wrote a while ago, that my mother was dying of cancer, and I wasn't sure if I should let my kids go say goodbye in her final days. I want to thank every one for their kind words.

For months, from the moment I found out, iv been relatively calm. Out of every one in my family, I kept a brave face. I hardly shed a tear. So much so my sister was quite upset with my lack of emotions. She understands now, that's just my way of coping. Iv always been the stay strong during, and break down when its all over kind of person.

It's been 3 weeks and so much has been going on in my home life right now, that iv finally broken down. All I want is my mum. She was the person I went to to confide in. Now I think about calling her, open my phone ready to call and it clicks, that she can't answer. I miss her so much