i’m stuck in a dark little over thinking spot i feel so numb and lost in the world like i have no purpose i work full time and a mum have a partner who works extremely hard ( on the surface the normal life) but i can’t help but shake the feeling of being no one i’m over weight can’t get the weight to shift i joint the gym which normally i love it’s usually my outlet but now i just can’t shake the leaving the house and going
hubby has hobbies and friends and i’m just this third wheel ( he doesn’t make me feel like that) i just feel like that. i stress every day about him cheating on me for no god damn reason other then i feel bad about my self so just make up all these things in my head how do i start to be positive and stop over thinking and creating situations in my head 😥
lost in this world
lost in this world
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Do yourself a favour and either get a mental health plan for counselling or if you can afford it, then go and see someone.
Sounds like you have depression with low self esteem.
You need to work on your mind before you can work on your physical body.
Talk to your partner if you can about how you’re feeling (whatever you want to share, eg sad because overweight, feeling unmotivated, feeling unsecure, spiralling etc)
The more you hold in and let your anxious brain think things, the harder it will be for you to get out of this spot.
You need to find a way to stop your mind spiralling out of control.
Join a local walking group (usually community centres offer these for older citizens but at 32 i joined one and made some sweet older friends)
Start a craft hobby or bird watching, hiking etc anything to get you out and in nature will be beneficial, invite hubby to join you if you have someone who can watch the kids.
I’m sending you love and hope that something in here is maybe a little bit useful to you.
Please though, don’t beat yourself up if you start feeling crap again, sit infront of the mirror and tell yourself it’s ok to slip and think of your weight etc, but it’s not ok to hyper focus, remind yourself how wonderful and loved you are and keep on keeping on 💜💜💜💜
Journaling has always helped me when I get like this. I find once it’s been written out on a piece of paper it was out there and not so much in my head