Help in being more consistent

Hello everyone,

I am a mum of 2 children, 4 and 2yo. I have Bipolar II and struggle with emotions control and do not have many friends. Some days I am so tired that I can't do anything.

I am just scared that my children will suffer in their development from having a mother with emotions up and down all the time and that I am not raising them the right way. I feel awful about myself when they have a TV day.

My husband is very hands on on his days off, which helps a lot but I was wondering if anyone had tips on how I could get more involved with the kids.

I am taking my meds every day but cannot secure much counseling sue to living in the bush. I just feel like a failure comparing myself to other mums. Thanks everyone.