Hi, anyone else out there suffer from Bi Polar? I'm currently going through another depressive episode and having trouble dealing with the guilt of my husband doing almost all the housework, cooking and working full time. I've been in hospital as I was suicidal but I still feel like that. I can go to a clinic for 2 weeks but once again the guilt gets me. I have 4 kids and I feel like I have completely checked out. I went through a manic episode that lasted for 3 months last year and I was in a psychiatric ward for 2 weeks. It also came with Psychosis which cost me my job.
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I'm bipolar 1. Totally not stable at the moment but that's because I've taken myself off my antidepressant I personally believe they don't work and my antipsychotics. Lately I can't be fucked doing a single thing but I make myself do it. My husband cooks dinner every night. My last psychotic episode was last year lucky no hospital. Prior to that I was in and out of locked wards. Not a fun experience I can tell you. At the moment I'm experiencing auditory hallucinations but I'm used to it, I know once I start hearing full on concerts that I'm on the verge of a psychotic episode.
That must be so hard on both of you. Have you sought a support group. My husband has bi polar and found it helpful to be in a support group with similar minded individuals.
Lithium works well for me
I feel you sister, hang in there the down doesn't last forever.
I was really badly rapid cycling last year with auditory and visual hallucinations. I also had some pretty wild paranoid episodes but they have all settled now.
I second getting off the meds they make me worse as well.
Try your best to get into a routine with house work and kids. I recommend Fly Lady, helps to have a plan for the cleaning stuff. Get a good family Callander and hold yourself to the activities on there. Don't put anything major but things like a park trip on the weekend or a walk around the block even with the kids helps relieve the guilt. Every day I get up and do the same cleaning and mum routine and then can relax after but I force myself to do my bare minimum jobs at least (breakfast, clean kitchen, load laundry, vacuum, tidy rooms etc).
Good luck you can make it
Oh man for a second I thought I'd written a post and forgotten about it!
This is almost identical to my situation atm.
I've spent almost 3 months in a clinic in the last 12 months.
Currently going into another depressive period and know I need to go back but cant.. oh the guilt you feel!
I feel like it's just so much harder as a parent. Feeling like you are constantly failing them.
I don't have anything useful to say to help you but you certainly aren't alone in feeling this way.
Sending lots of love and support xx
If I was you I would be doing the Medical Medium protocols and Advanced TRS ( Zeolites) to see if Heavy Metals and toxins are causing your condition.