Sorry if this sounds muddled up i am just all over the place. I am really in a rut i have been for the last 6 months i dont know whats wrong with me. I have suffered from depression and anxiety for 13 years and i have had a really rough time lately, my husband and i seperated he cheated on me and i have been left with 3 young children on my own. I find life so stressful im exhausted i cant handle it anymore. I have been reading about BPD (borderline personality disorder) and i feel like i may have it. Ive always been my worst enemy my mind is contantly running around overthinking every little thing. Sometimes my mind is going so fast i dont even know what im thinking about. I have no friends as i am so worried to talk to people i feel like i just sound stupid. Im so uncomfortable in social situatuons i feel like noone wants to talk to me and i never have anything to talk about i feel like everyone is judging i hate myself im so disgusting i dont blame anyone for not wanting to talk to me. I feel like i have no personality. I like being lonely but then i dont at the same time. I just dont enjoy anything anymore. I constantly get cranky at my kids i cant help it and then i feel so quilty afterwards. I love them with all my heart they are the only things that keep me going. I dont know what im really asking for here i just need help.
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What u r writing is exactly what I would have written a few years ago! Xxxx the first step is aknowledging there is a problem, second step is seeking help. to talk about your problems, insecurities, issues etc shows strength, and u will continue to grow the more you open up to trusted friends/family/professionals. Get a referral to a psychologist it will change your life as it did mine. Go to your local women's center they do courses which will help too. Nutrition will help too. I took a lot of advise of Dr Axe online and it's made me feel I have my energy back. Something easy to start would be eat 2 raw egg yolks (not whites) daily- the natural vitamins and minerals will give u an energy boost straight away, I give them to my kids too in a milo or milkshake to keep them healthy and their brains healthy too. Xxxxoooo good luck!