** Please note , im not attention seeking but if you nasty humans out there want to fucking think that go for your fucking life!! I truly don't give a shit anymore. Bring it if you feel you must. **
I'm a horrible person. I'm a fuck up. Everyone else is perfect. I hate this life. I want out. And I'm going to get it one way or another. I promise everyone that!!!!!
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I'm really sorry you feel that way.
13 11 14. Please call that number urgently.
Whatever you are going through is only temporary - whatever you have done so badly can be rectified, maybe not back to the way it was but you can always be remorseful and show that.
Nobody is perfect, I'm really sorry that the people you're surrounding yourself with make you feel that way because we honestly aren't ever perfect.
Hey IM we're all fuck ups in one way or another. None of us are perfect. Please don't make any drastic decisions! We're all here to help and I'd be happy to give you my email if you feel you can't talk openly. What's going on Hun?
Have you thought about getting counselling so you have someone to help you with how you're feeling. You may not know this but it's the people you leave behind after doing something to yourself that hurt the most, mentally, emotionally, financially (yes I had to bring that up because unless you have funeral insurance and all your debts cleared someone else is going to have to deal with it)
Even if you don't care about what you do to yourself please think about what you're going to do to the people you will leave behind. I hope you can get some help, it's never fun living in the black cloud.
Hey I'm a fuck up, I forgot my son had band practice this morning and so he missed it....again! That's just today. I fuck up so much that it isn't a fuck up anymore, it's just normal and everyone expects it of me. Tell us why you are a fuck up, I'm sure we can all relate and it's probably stuff we have all done. Come on, tell us.....
You're anonymous, we know you aren't attention seeking. You've reached out to us, very brave of you.
Totally agree with these ladies. Nobodys perfect. We all fuck up. Unfortunatley we're so much harder on ourselves than anyone else is. People forgive, they move on, time gives us the opportunity to change, grow, forget, start fresh, improve, the story goes on and one day youll be ina different place, and today will be a bad memory.
Call lifeline and speak to a person 13 11 14
I'm a horrible person but I try really hard to not be. I was raised to be, it's really hard to go against that every day but I do it, especially for my partner and our son. They deserve that.
I'm a fuck up on the inside but I fake it every day. When I'm feeling particularly fucked up I put some music on.
Something fast and heavy to bring all the rage to the top, I bust the shit out of a punch bag and get it out of my system. This also helps with not losing my shit and the fucktards I work with.
Everyone else is not perfect, I haven't met anyone that has 100% of their shit together. A lady at work spends a fortune on Tupperware etc then bitches because she and her partner are broke. Won't let him buy a pack of smokes because it's a waste of money, but he can buy a carton of beer because she'll drink some of it. Another has an insane gambling addiction that has ruined his personal life. Another is on his fifth wife. Another has the ugliest mullet you could ever imagine. Not one of our friends or family have their shit together, some are better at hiding that fact but they're all fucked up.
Use your hate to be the catalyst to change your life, make a goal, make a plan and then make it happen. There is always, always hope. Good luck.