Feeling the pressure of Christmas

Anon Imperfect Mum

Feeling the pressure of Christmas

Needing a bit of a virtual hug right now imperfect mums. We've had a very tight year as a family this year, having to move our family due to domestic violence, had a car accident with damages up to $10,000 on an already very tight budget. (Weeks without our vechile and no money to repair) so we've done it pretty tough the past few months and without family or close friends it kind of just leaves my SO and I to support one another as we can. We do at times get a little stressed without help, and very little time to relax or spend as adults alone as a break. But we generally do scrape through the tough times and make it through it. But this Christmas is weighing so heavily on me as a mummy ? As a child of an abusive home, a magical Christmas is something I've always longed for and has always been something I've always treasured and I always wanted my children to have. Due to all of the set backs this year we have been behind and in debt everywhere and I fear that I won't be able to give my kids the Christmas that they honestly deserve. They have battled through the last few months along side us with such championship, haven't complained due to the many sacrifices we've had to make or any of the many miles we've had to walk in the heat while our car was worked on and figured out. My daughter brought home a Christmas list from school today that she had made and it just broke me, it said that for Christmas she'd buy her brother nappies. Something that up until a few months ago we'd never thought we would have to even think about running out of. I just want to know that I am not the only one who is feeling down about not being able to financially "do" Christmas. All my love will be there and we will be together and under a roof, healthy and cared for and for that I'm so unbelievably grateful for believe me but I wish I could just give my beautiful, strong baby's everything they ever wanted the food, the presents and the magic of santa ? If you do feel like me. I want you to know you're certainly not alone. I wish I could just curl up in a ball with my sweethearts and wake up after all the Christmas fuss is over with ?

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Anon Imperfect Mum

You aren't alone. This is about the 4 th post about this very topic in the last month or so.

I can honestly say, my sons first 19 Xmas' I felt the same. It's only now as an adult I've been able to really afford Xmas for him.

But guess what, you have clearly raised kids who are lovely people. What an amazing little girl you have

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