Why does it feel like having depression & seeing a Pyschologist is such a bad thing??
A family member told me, "l wouldnt be telling my Solicitor that you've got depression & seeing a Pyschologist. I just dont want to you to look like a fool"
Same as when l had Family Service assistance, the same family member told me to "Get rid of them, you dont need them around & knowing all your business"
At least Family service were more understanding than my own family. I achieved all my set goals with Family Service.
I dont understand, l am capable of looking after my kids, the kids are clean, happy, decently clothed, looked after & fed, they come 1st in my eyes all the time so whats the problem? Yes, lm not perfect, l have my down days, my snappy moody moments, l may sleep on the odd occasions throughout the day but kids are still safe & not in danger.
Everytime the family starts picking, being too critical, tell me what to do etc. then l feel more depressed & so confused.
As it is, the ex partner says lm too negative, lm a toxic person & my body full of toxins. Why?? Is it because lm a realist person while hes too full of positive & optimistic? Is that how l should be, forever optimistic? He really done my head in & lve felt nothing but so confused since l was in a r/ship with him! I was having suicidal thoughts but of course never followed through in any way of action/s, just thoughts.
My ex partner sent me a Solicitor's letter to have access of the kids for overnight stays.
I think & feel our 10 months old daughter is too young to be staying with him for 2 nights until she's a bit older or am l wrong to feel & think that?
Also, how does having Depression help me get funding from Legal Aide as advised by my Solicitor?
Why am l made to feel like lm a shit person, the bad person cos what l say, do or even as much as being honest is such a bad thing?
I sometimes wonder, who am l living to please, myself or my family??
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I think you're around some pretty toxic people and perhaps being depressed and already been through the wringer you're having problems knowing they're full of shit and just ignoring and going along on your way.
Sounds like you need to loose some toxic family members!!!
My daughter was doing over nighters with her dad from the time she was 10 months old. One night a week, every week. She's now three. She goes with her older brothers. Have you and your ex been through mediation yet? That's usually the first port of call in breakups with children. I understand your fears but are they really warranted? Is she breast fed? If not there is no reason for her dad not to have visitation with her over night. If start off with one night and a day and slowly work your way to two nights. My ex was the toxic negative person in our realationship and in turn caused me to be toxic also. Now days I'm always happy and always optimistic. You can't always be in a negative space. There's a difference to being a realist and a difference to being a negative nancy. Try and find a medium.