Lost. Feeling so so lost and alone. The feeling of being so worthless I shouldn't have my children . I'm not good enough. I no I'm barley hanging on. No one notices. I'm the strong one. Get over it, other people have it worse. We'll help. Yeah right. Normally it's the ones you love the most that hurt you the most. I'm hiding. I can't take it. I can hear my daughter crying. My son hiding. Cos mummy is having her breakdown. I can't deal with the mess. I don't no how to put myself together. But I will. I have to work. Have to pay the bills. Have to be strong. While I die inside. But no one knows. Except the two I love the most.
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Honey please speak to your GP. Ring lifeline or contact beyondblue. Its a terrible feeling I know, I've had my one or two breakdowns and it's ok you'll get through this and your kids will get through this.
Get yourself to your gp as soon as possible. Ring lifeline (or whichever you prefer). You are not alone.
*hug* the ones you love the most will tell you it's all lies. They just want cuddles as do you. Give them cuddles.