I think something is wrong with me. I am a single mother of a 6 year old son and I dont think I feel how a mother should feel. It's like I do everything for him on autopilot with no emotions. Am I supposed to feel an overwhelming love for him? Some sort of bond? I just think I should feel more for him. I think something is wrong with me. I do things with him and take him places where he has fun but only because I feel I have to and not because I enjoy it. I don't feel like we laugh together and have fun like we should be? I'm
Not sure what I'm even asking here but surely other mothers feel more towards their children. How do I make us bond? I feel like I'm such a shitty mother and that he needs more love from me but I don't know how to give it. My mother was cold and unloving and I don't recall her ever hugging me. I don't want my son to have that. I do tell him I love him i do hug him but it's like I don't feel anything. I just do and say because it's what I am meant to.
I want to bond with him and laugh and have fun and be the best mother but im failing. I want to enjoy him. Could I have sort of issue. Am I depressed? How do I get feelings???
Don't enjoy my child
Don't enjoy my child
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You could have some sort o issue, definitely worth seeing a gp and or psychologist.
What you've described is me when i was overwhelmed, doing all the things on autopilot made me miserable. I wasn't enjoying any of it at all. It took a few practical changes with the help of a psychologist and now , sure i dislike some jobs, but im not on autopilot all day long, im present and its very different.
He fact that you do everything for him, and that you care about being a shitty mum, tells me you love him and have a beautiful bond there , its probably just buried under stress and constant work at the moment.
The fact you are aware of this shows me you have feelings. If you had no feelings you just wouldn't care and wouldn't be writing this.
When I'm depressed I sometimes feel disconnected from the world. I'm going through the motions in robot world. It's quite possible you are depressed but it also sounds like you have some unresolved issues regarding your mother. Good news is you want your son to be happy and you want to feel that rush of love.
I'd head off to your GP(book a long appointment) tell them how you feel. They can direct you to the correct services.