I'm currently in what I've been told a probable miscarriage . :-(
I have never had one and I have two older children (who didn't know I was pregnant thank god) but this was my first with my partner of 6 years. I'm only 5w 3 d I was excited he was thrilled and now I'm feeling so so miserable and so empty and like my body has failed me. My levels are so low that it's not likely I'm just having pregnancy bleeding and I'm off to the dr this morning to just have it confirmed . I'm passing clots as well and it's just not normal and I'm not a big Google fan of trying to find a happy ending because I'm realistic.
I know it's common and it happens for a reason and to seemingly healthy people but it's so heartbreaking for me I don't know how I'm going to cope with it.
I guess I'm just posting to let it out and to just try and find a way to move past it and get past the fear it'll happen again if I fall again. Im older at 38 so I know my clocks ticking so it's so heartbreaking and a worry in my mind :-( sorry for the essay I just needed to get my heartache out there so I can try and breathe and function for my kids X
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Oh hun I'm so sorry for you. Unfortunately I know your pain.
I have everything crossed that it may not be a miscarriage for you.
If it is then all I can suggest is to let it out. Grieve, cry, scream at the world. Don't hold it in, you need to give it time. Whilst you'll always feel sad the pain does ease eventually
Thankyou that was lovely X I'm currently sitting here waiting for my ultrasound to make sure I'm all clear and it's progressing the way it's supposed to. I've had my emotional breakdown a few times today and now I'm ready to have a little closure . I'm so sad still but know it happened quickly for me to fall in 3 months hopefully it'll happen again X
Hey hun how did your scan go? Been crossing everything for you
My uterus is empty as I knew it would . My lining is shedding as normal so they see no reason why it won't continue to do so . I'm hurt and sad but I know it must've happened for a reason . I know we can try again but I feel a little empty today :-( thankyou for caring it's lovely of you X
This could have been hun! I am so sorry for your loss and its ok to feel like this. I have two older children too and so much wanted to have another baby but also felt like my body failed me! I haven't been able to fall pregnant since as well and am closer to 40 than I wouod like. You will be ok but please let yourself feel and cry and whatever!! I didn't and wish I did. Hugs x