My ex and I seperated quite a while back-and I live by myself with my 2 gorgeous girls! I love them to bits and cannot imagine life any other way.
Last year my youngest daughter was diagnosed with an extremely serious blood condition that causes her to be immunocompromised. At the time I needed resigned from my role at work and took on the role of her carer. I've spent a lot of time in and out of hospital with her, to various specialist appointments.
My life has revolved around them for the past 5 years. My eldest has now started school, and the youngest has had her condition stabilise enough (through medication) to return to daycare 1 day a week for social interaction and as a test to ensure she was well enough before I returned to work.
But now I'm feeling like I'm a bit lost. I don't really do much except for the mum gig. Like I said, I love my kids. I love the beautiful relationship I have with them. But I feel like my ideals, my wants and needs have changed. I feel like I want to do more to work on my authentic self. I'd love to expand my networks with new friendships. To engage in new hobbies. After paying a huge amount of rent (I need to be close to a major hospital for my daughter, and be close to my family for support when we're in hospital so can't really move), electricity, food, fuel, car insurance, school expenses, preschool etc there isn't a great deal left to work with. I cannot really afford to do what I'd really love to do (yoga/meditation/African drumming) and it's getting me down a little.
I guess my question is-how do I change my life around so I feel like I am whole again? How do I change so I feel like I'm me again?
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Have you ever thought of studying...? What if you studied your loves and passions? Like yoga ? Become a yoga instructor? You would be meeting people with the same interests, doing something you love and by the time your qualified your youngest would probs be in school. You could then even open your own studio (financial wise is possible) but it wouldn't cost a lot to study.
Hi,
I've really struggled with this myself. My son was diagnosed with a rare sleep disorder that can make him sleep up to 20hrs a day, or not sleep at all!
Anyway I gave up work 2 years ago. I won't be able to return to work (he is already an adult) unless there is a change to how they allocate funding for carers. We are currently funded for 9hrs a week, so that means some weeks I only leave the house in those 9hrs!
Have you contacted your local carers organisation? Also contact your local council. Sometimes they offer services and cheap courses for things like drumming etc at a cheap price. It would at least give you an outlet to express yourself.