I've always been an anxious person, but the last few months it's getting worse and worse
I have constant butterflies in my tummy, I can't ring people or answer the phone, I have an irrational fear of my real estate and will have full blown panic attacks (the kind where you think you're having a heart attack and get dizzy and tremble, and a warm sensation saturates my body) when I get a letter from them
The butterflies are the last thing I'm aware of as I fall asleep, and the first thing I'm aware of as I wake up
It's crippling me, I can't focus on anything but my kids, everything else is falling to the side, my house, my bills, my friendships
It started worsening significantly after I had the mirena put in 5 months ago
I've also been on a low dose antidepressant for 8 years, which has never properly been reviewed and dose has never been changed
But even though I can think of those as possible reasons this is happening, I'm beginning to feel scared there's something seriously wrong with me and I'll never be able to function, and I should hand my kids over to docs and live on the streets
I know I should see a dr, and I will force myself to soon, but even making the phone call for an appointment has me shaking and gasping for air
I think I need to hear from other people who have experienced this level of anxiety and if you got though it, is there hope for me?
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I've been there! And making that step to the GP can be hard but I promise you they are there to help and the faster you go the faster you can get better. Within weeks I was feeling slightly better and feeling normal within a month or two. My journey involved medication, cognitive behaviour therapy, and traditional talk therapy.
Okay, you know you need to see a doctor. That's good. I cannot impress upon you enough how important it is that you are seen soon because your Mirena and anti-depressants definitely need reviewing.
Do you have anyone at all in your life who can help you out with this? I'm talking about someone who will literally pick up the phone and call the doctor for you, who can drive you there? Someone who can help you get things on track, check in daily? If this was one of my friends posting this I would do exactly those things for them because as an anxiety sufferer I know how this feels and how hard it is.
If not the above, can you see if you can make an appointment online for your GP? Some surgeries are signed up to online databases so their patients can make appointments anytime etc.
Best of luck IM. XXXXXXXXX
Wow reading that it feels like your shutting down - cept for the kids of course.
Bills keep coming, no backup plan/ stability for rental property not sure how your ever going to see sunlight out of the hole your in and how you can be of any benefit to the kids. No real support /guidance. BUT you will get thru it. It is not easy. It's absolutely tough gig running a household and bringing up kids. Your probably exhausted and run down. You know it's gotta be done- get someone to book you in asap get a blood test and access a mental health care plan. Let someone take care of you for a little while. Regardless of what you feel/ think about yourself YOU ARE WORTH IT !! Xxxx