Confused about life.

Hi IM's! First of all, I'd just like to show my appreciation for such a wonderful community.

Where to begin?! I struggled with depression since a young age. Here's a quick rundown.

11 years old my parents divorced. My dad was never around and when he was it was like he was always angry and he was always belting me and my sister. One day he belted me so bad, I went to school and my uniform didn't cover my bruises and I got called to the office. Guidance councillor and child safety got involved and called my dad for a meeting. He told them he didn't do it and I was a liar. I was belted all the time for little things.

Fast forward a few years, my brother was born. Slowly our family fell apart. Despite everything, my dad was my best friend, I love him so much. He began to hate me. 8 years later (im 23) and i still havent heard from him. He basically abandoned me but still has regular contact with my brother and sister.

My sister got diagnosed with autism at the age of about 14, life became harder for us. I caught my mum trying to commit suicide. I dropped out of school at 14. My mum moved us to Canberra for her job where drugs, alcohol and police incidents became a regular thing for me.

Fast forward to now. I'm a single mum. My son's father left me when I was pregnant for his ex girlfriend. Our relationship was very toxic and PND was a massive part of my life for the best part of 3 years (my son is nearly 5).

I left my mum in Canberra and moved back to where my friends and other support was.

My relationship with my father's family broke down after my grandfather died about 11 years ago. My mums family has always picked on me, abused me verbally, mentally and emotionally, which in return I've never been close with them.

To date: one of my sisters commited suicide almost 3 months ago. I've met a wonderful man that means so much to me. I packed my life up without anyone knowing and moved my son and I to a different country (about 6 weeks ago)

I've recently been in contact with my mum and she is trying to take my son off me. She doesn't care about how I feel or how I will feel if he goes. It's been me and my son since day 1, although my mum has helped me a bit. She always says "what about my family, I want him to be with us".

Since being here, everyone has complimented me on how I've raised my son, how well spoken and polite he is. I feel like my hard work is going to waste

I was just so fed up. So fed up with the nasty comments. I needed a place to stay for a week because my lease ended, so I asked my mum to stay there. Her response was "your sister and her dogs are here, there's no room for you, but your son can stay". I've always been outcast. I think the last time I spent Christmas with my family was 4 years ago. I'm not invited to weddings or family things.

I'm hurt in all honesty. I think of my mum everyday and it breaks my heart when I talk to her, I just couldn't take anymore of the crap!

Thanks for reading xo