Will it get easier

Hi IMs. I posted a while ago about my DV relationship. Ive attached it at the bottom.
I have had my little girl now and she is a total blessing and so perfect. I am still fighting my ex in court and he isnt backing down on my AVO going ahead because that means he will loose his job. His still making out i am crazy and he didnt do any of the things I am saying he did that I have made them all up.
He was tracking my phone for a long time and would turn up every where i did for a long time. Im still to scared to go down town alone and am always looking over my back, when changing my phone it stopped but his friends would see me down town and call him up and he would come straight in to town so i never go out any more and the police say i dont have enough evidence.
I gave this man the best years of my life i gave up my jobs my house deposit my carrier everything and he never appreciated me or anything i did for him. Im in tears as I wright this as I think after all this time I finally have broken its finally hit me. I was living in hell as his prisoner littlery i had no car keys no phone as he broke them, no contact with the world and pregnant and he tried so many times to take her from me too. Every night i was made to have sex with him and no was never an answer if it was he would always guilt me into it or force me in some way. Every day he would come home from work and I had to give him oral sex because he told me it relaxed him after his hard day at work and he wouldn't be so cranky and of course i did what he said because i would do anything for him to not get angry at me but he always did any way but i hoped for something different every day.
He has not made any contact to get any time with his daughter its like he has disappeared which dont get me wrong is a total blessing for us but it breaks my heart to know he doesn't want anything to do with is daughter he never did from the day i told him i was pregnant because he already had one child to another women. If he wanted time i would fight him to not have any as he is dangerous but it would of been nice for my daughter to know dad wanted her. When i left that is when he wanted to know about my pregnancy and the birth he got his lawyer to contact me for him to know about my pregnancy and be present when i was in labour. Every one was telling me he probably has a new girl in his life and that is why he doesn't want my daughter and i didnt want to believe them but I found out he has a new girlfriend and i have shut off to every thing i feel numb. I know my thoughts all along were right now he only wanted to know about my daughter because it was contact with me but now he has moved on he really never wanted her. He is a psychopath the police tell me and its all making scene now.
I feel broken that after everything i did for him this is what he does. And now i am scared for this new girl and i dont even have her name to contact her to tell her to run. I look at my self in the mirror and just feel ugly because of all the times he told me how worthless i was, my eye is still bruised looking and puffy from the black eye he gave me at the start of the year. Just staring at the computer screen as i wright this it is hurting from making it focus. I dont know what I am asking here just need to let out some of the pain. My councler is away on holidays so I dont have her to talk to. Will it get any easier, will all the trauma and flash backs go away? I dont even know what to tell my daughter when she is older or know how many other half siblings she will have. I think i could be suffering PTSD?

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