I have moments during the day where I stop and wonder, if something was to happen( something tragic) to me how long before anybody would notice? But then I quickly snap out of it and go about my day.
I'm a mother of 3 awesome kids that are my entire life!!! I have a husband that I love and he works extremely hard to provide for us. We are on the land so that makes me farmers wife, that's a job in its self. I have no family around me. No one reaches out to me. I always initiate conversation with the friends I do have in places that I have lived in. I have no one to talk to.
I'm the eldest of 4, 3 younger brothers who I basically raised. When I was young we were always moving around. I attended 11 different schools so I've never been able to be part of a community and I don't know how to interact with people. I'm a bit socially awkward.
Now that I'm raising my own family I want the best for them, everything I didn't have.
Sorry for the confusion not sure if I'm asking a question or just venting? But I feel so alone. I just wish I had someone to talk to.
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Is there are counsellor or GP you could talk to about this? What about a Facebook group you could join.
I live in a very isolating position myself and my favebook groups are my community. We have even holidayed together!! It took a year or so to build my group but now if I didn't check in someone always reaches out after a few days.
I know the feeling, I'm a mum of 3 and live in a small town where my husband grew up.
I have lived here 7 years and still don't have friends here, I'm socially awkward as well. I focus on my kids, husband and hobbies because otherwise I would go insane.