After some advice, support, stories,anything positive anyone can offer. I've been suffering from an eating disorder for the past 18 months. I've got young kids and feel like I'm setting a horrible example. I was diagnosed with mild an and also caught up at times in purging. I have come a long way but struggling to get completely through the negative thoughts I have towards food, exercise and myself / body image which causes me to relapse. Is it really possible to completely get it out of your life? Thanks :)
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I was and still identify as a binge eater. Yes it gets a hell of a lot better. It takes some time and being aware of triggers etc for me. Although I would say I'm 95% better and my majority of days my mind is clear, I still have my bad days. Today isn't a great day mostly triggered by my sister talking endlessly about how evil she thinks some foods are. It's triggered binging urges over her 'evil' foods. So I'm having to reset my brain. Nowhere near as bad and I know this will pass. But I'll have to reconsider how I interact with my sister for my own mental health.
I'm not sure those who have anorexia which I know always have anorexia.
It reduces and can be managed but my mother never really has a full meal....I dont keep scales anywhere because when she visits my sister every time she weighs herself...and she really is considered recovered. She will eat with us...but she never cleans her plate....
Good luck. The butterfly foundation are the nonprofit for eating disorders and body dismorphia. Although TBH iv tried getting himself help for binge eating and there isn't any eating disorder services outside of the city...when realistically it requires a specialist in eating disorders for combination counselling therapies and dietician.
She hasn't needed to be hospitalised for anorexia in about 30 years.....but I'm not blind...its still there lurking underneath. She eats here...not as much as is put before her but she only eats here because I know which foods she will eat because of the effort that goes into preparing them and she knows I will put her in the roasting pan if she dares Diss my roast!
Honestly talk about it with your kids....eat with your kids...
None of us have eating disorders even with mum being a full blown anorexic throughout our formative years and being repeatedly hospitalised and given literally a day to live....if she survives the next 24 hours we have a chance....sort of thing...
And coming from someone who knows a 60 yo anorexic....the disorder does PERMANANT damage to your body which you never really recover from.
Your kids are going to be your best cheer squad ever
I have been batteling with anorexia since I was 16 am now 30 and pregnant. I don't keep scales in the house and avoid trashy mags and anything with negative body image's. I also try to make sure any mirrors in the house mainly show my face (which is hard as there are two full length mirrors in this house)<- for those mirrors i literally look at my toes whilst passing them.
I still suffer with a negative appearance aproach towards myself but my partner is very supportive of me and always compliments me daily, it has helped emensly.
For my pregnancy I concentrate on giving my baby the best start I possibly can but it is still a struggle, am kinda glad I get heart burn as eating does settle it.
I honestly dont think i will fully get over it as it has controlled my life for so long and not eating is usually my way of controlling my stress. Find out what your triggers are and positive ways of dealing with them.
Have fun with food, preparing, growing and creating.
On top of all of this I found out I have IBS so there are many things I have to stay away from.
For exercise I really don't do much, I live in a two story house so am constantly going up and down the stairs, and I enjoy being out in the garden where I have some alone time and am not in the public eye. I also got rid of the friends that where always talking about diets and weight loss and how much they hate their body, i already have that dialog in my head i dont need others saying it directly to me. So the negative ppl went in the trash.
I dont look up about diets anymore but conerntrate on life style changes.
I hope you find a way to manage your thoughts find a way of getting through it or just dealing with it.