What next?

Got Xray results today...

Apparently I have been walking around with a fractured knee cap for the last 10 years...

Years literally of physio surgery on the knee xrays ultrasounds up the wazoo and surgeons saying no nothing else we can do...

The Xrays by an awesome radiologist finally show why my knee has never really recovered from surgery. Admittedly it may have happened post op like in the hour post Op while I was sitting at the hospitals front door waiting for him to get the car. I blacked out and fell off the bench they had at the pick up zone. I landed knee first the one they had just operated on. They did the right thing they took me back upstairs had the surgeon look it over. But the results of the surgery were disappointing according to the surgeon and he basically told me to expect it to be worse...so while I continued physio and pursuing options I basically accepted that I couldn't even touch my knee for an entire 5 years post op...and today they told me all this time I had broken the knee cap!

I'm disabled this knee has destroyed my other knee by compensating my back my hip... I havent been able to work for the last 10 years. TBH I'm not expecting it to just suddenly fix all the damage its done either.

My daughters tonight were giving me high fives of relief. when they were preschoolers and toddler they would smother my leg with bandaids if I ever closed my eyes and drifted off from the pain killers when they were home...single mum it wasnt easy particularly with this.

I still have to get the surgery done to clean it up but what next...