Hi guys
For many years, I've had a recurring memory of something that happened when I was about 5/6. My family were at a sporting event (something we did every weekend as a family), and I remember an older boy, I think he was a teenager? I remember other details about him, like hair colour etc, I also remember what I was wearing that day. Anyway, I digress.
I find this really hard to explain, so please bear with me. I'm pretty sure that on that day, I was sexually abused. I remember things that happened, things that were said, and this person telling me not to tell my mum because that would be wrong. I'm also positive this isn't a false memory, as I've been having it for a very long time.
I told my husband tonight about it, it's the first time I've told anyone. He's been understanding and suggested that I speak to a gp and get a referral to a psych, but apart from not being quite ready for that right now, I don't really know where to turn.
I would appreciate any help, I know this is a very sensitive subject, and it might be hard to answer, but I really don't know what my next step would be.
Thank you in advance for any assistance.
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Usually when my head is a jumble and I'm not ready to talk I write it down in a journal. It helps to get the facts, thoughts, feelings etc out and you can see them more clearly.It can also help you to figure out what you want next if anything in relation to the problem. Sometimes I have written letters to myself as a similar idea and it has helped me to process something that has been difficult to confront emotionally and I've been able to let it go altogether.
One last idea I have a friend who was going through a very difficult time and she went to see a 'tapping' therapist. Its a bit like counselling except there is a bit of a specialised technique to it that allows you to detach emotionally and minimise that issue in your life.
Good luck.