I'm a single mum with two children and I am finding everything so hard. I feel bad for my children because I'm depressed all the time. I spend time with them but my heart just isn't in it and I feel overwhelmed. I feel like I'm failing them.
I'm on anti depressants I've had to switch a few times, due to unwanted side effects.
I literally feel like I'm dying a slow death. I feel like I can't breathe and in so much emotional pain.
I find the noises from my children playing so irritating , going through the toy box for instance or constant fighting.
I don't know what to do , I'm so overwhelmed and unhappy.
I see a counselor also which helps to an extent, but I honestly feel like I will never be free from sadness and drowning all the time. Right now I feel like this will be my forever.
I guess the reason I'm writing this jumbled mess, is because I want hope... I want to know stories of recovering from depression and anxiety , or things to help. Thanks
Feeling really down
Feeling really down
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I felt a little bit similar, and it was just overload and overworked and depression and anxiety too. I saw a psychologist who helped me organise my life and it helped a lot. I was spending all my time with kids and was quite miserable about it too and we talked through my guilt and how it's much better for them to get a little bit of good solid quality time with me happy & engaged, and you also need your own time and as long as the kids are happy where they are, that's great. It sounds like you definitely need some timeout from your kids. I can honestly say now that timeout is all I needed and now that I have a good balance I do honestly enjoy my kids.
I also needed to work and have A life balance, I don't feel bad for that, but it is hard to manage and balance it all, but seeing this psychologist really helped me figure out my life, down to my bedtime, getting enough sleep, eating regularly, scheduling my weekends and evenings, finding hobbies and dreams again. It can be done. It can also be quite exciting to make those changes, even taking the first steps and feeling the difference. Remember what you enjoy and find the time to do it.
I am one of those people. Depression isn't forever. I still have to be watchful for it but now when I see the early signs I can get myself back on track earlier. So even though I've had some bouts it's only been mild and short lived.
Yeah it was hard work getting back on track the first time and I had to accept some changes in my life to ease the pressure. I found cognitive behaviour therapy in combination with the right drugs and traditional counselling very beneficial.
But when I was in the darkest place I had to accept that my son needed to spend more time with other people wether that was daycare or friends and family. Just one day to myself a week made a huge difference but if I could get more I took it. Having one day where I didn't have to force myself to pretend.
Thank you for your reply. I do study one day I week and mostly like that. The other days I'm home with my little man who has developmental delays I feel absolutely lost and unmotivated. I think more structure and routine would help me. I've thought about increasing my study, but don't know how I would cope with the cost or the two kids.