When I was a teenager I was drugged and sexually assaulted by a friend's step father. It wasn't just the sexual abuse that occurred that night. It was also having to wake up at his house the next morning. And the humiliation of events that occurred that morning. I used to be confident. I had a "kick in my step". I was thin and took care of myself. Now I am in my 30s. I am still scarred by what happened. I have lost confidence in myself. I struggle to trust people, and when I have trusted, it has been with the wrong people and I find myself getting hurt. I have gained a lot of weight, as it is easier to be fat and not attract attention from males. I am stuck in a rut and don't know how to get out of it. How do I move on all these years later? I feel such anger and hatred for the scum who hurt me. I feel I need to hurt him in order to move forward. I never went to the police and was never drug tested after my assault. How do I move on?
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Time to seek out counselling for this. Good luck
Go see your gp and see a counsellor. What you went through isn't something you can move forward from easily. I was also drugged and raped as a teenager but by a so called friend, I didn't think and thought that drinking coke was fine and only alcohol gets spiked being young and naive, it's only in recent years I have stopped blaming myself and am moving on from it. It isn't something easily done by yourself though, that's what counsellors are for they can help you move forward. Good luck and don't be scared or ashamed to reach out for help