I just found out the man I was with for three years my entire "adult" life. The man who fatherd my child. The man who yes I have since left. Had been cheating on me with multiple "backpackers" the whole time.
I don't even know how I am supposed to process this. Up until today I thought I still loved this man. I think I still do.
How is my brain and my heart meant to cope with this information.
I'm looking at my son peacefully sleeping thinking "how could he do that to us?, is it because I got a little chunky after having a child and then multiple miscarriages? Is it becuse you told me you hate bigger woman. (I'm a 14)"
Is this my fault? Did I make him do this. Why? why am I only finding out now. Why! Why why!!!
And ontop of all this I heard he's started on drugs again.
Why?
Why?
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He did it because he is an arsehole! Nothing you did or didn't do made him behave like a dog.
It will take awhile to process and understand the guy you fell in love with was a fake and a liar.
Don't blame yourself x
It is all so fresh... Just need to give it time honey. Please don't ever blame yourself for his selfish actions. I don't care if you were the worst partner in the world (and I an sure you are not) he is a big boy and can leave anytime but don't ever place this blame on yourself. You don't deserve this :-( Hugs from me babe. I'm so sorry he's done this to you. Just focus on you and your child for now and the healing will happen in time.
It's because he's a poor excuse of a man. In time you'll see it. For now your hearts broken, but you move forward and very soon will look back with pity at such a disgusting person to treat people like that, and happiness that you've escaped that! Move on now. It's not you, it's not anything to do with you, it's all him and his ability to lie cheat and destroy a person And waste their time and take their heart and destroy it. Move on now.
Please just remember this every time you are down, you are never responsible for someone else's behavior. He did this because he is a selfish immature bastard who is and never will be good enough for you. Chalk this up as experience, love and cherish your son and only accept what you deserve, a good guy who loves you and won't put his own selfish wants over his family x
Im an attractive, size 8 and my ex cheated on me for years with anything that moved. It was just gutting to find this out. Cheating is all about them and nothing to do with you. It still disgusts me years and years later. Hold your head high and keep well away from his sorry ass!!!!