Hello everyone!
This is an extremely weird situation I'm in! (Stress wise). I have had this on my mind for many years, the more I think about it, the worse I get.
This may sound so silly, sorry in advance. When I was 5, I had a fight with my brother one morning before my mum took us to school. My mum also looked after my cousins, one of them was in my prep class. Now this fight happened in the car on the way to school, my mum made me apologise to my brother 10 times before exiting the car. This particular day, we had 'show and tell' in class. My cousin stood up and told the class what had happened with my brother and I and that I was at fault and had to apologise to him. The teacher made me stand up in front of the class and tell everyone what I did wrong and then sent me outside the classroom. I was balling my eyes out! The teacher then came out and told me that I had to go on the 'time out seat' which was out in the yard for the whole of lunch. My cousin walked past me and stood there laughing at me with a group of her friends. I'm now in my 30's and still till this day remember it like it was yesterday! What the hell is wrong with me! I do have kids of my own, I'm stressing and I get so paranoid. At the time, I was young, I didn't understand and I thought it was all normal. Do I need help? I can't seem to get it off my mind! I was never popular, I was quiet, very much to myself. I found very hard to make friends, I was bullied extremely bad through school. I have changed, opened up and I am a lot more social. But I'm still struggling, and feel as though everyone is against me and simply just don't like me. I don't know how else to improve.
Thank you all so much for listening! Any experiences and advice all welcome :-) X
Stresses with the past. Please help.
Stresses with the past. Please help.
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Mental Health, Anxiety & Depression
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I am very similar, I am a big dweller and constantly think about things that happen years ago and still remember and can feel the same emotions like it was yesterday. I have just started seeing a councilor as it's getting a bit too much, I will be doing the dishes and bam I'll start remembering a crappy thing that I did 5 years ago. I have only had 1 session so far and it was a basic meet and greet but just to say things aloud to someone did take a bit of weight off my shoulders. So maybe speaking with someone could help you move on as such, it may seem silly but it is the little things that can effect a person and change them.
Good luck
That sounds like a terrible experience and I can see why it would still be haunting you.
I think your teacher was totally out of line to discipline you for something that firstly they didn't even see you do, and secondly that your mother has already disciplined you for.
What your teacher did was not ok.
Have you tried speaking to a professional about it? That might be a good idea and could help you to figure out your feelings on it and to come to some closure about it. And to find some separation between that situation and how people view you currently(I hope that makes sense)
Just know that it's not weird... If that happened to me I would still be effected by it in adulthood too I think! I still remember and am effected by things that I experienced when i was a child just not as extremely as it seems this has effected you so i can definitely relate to how you must be feeling.
Stay strong xx
Definitely get some help from a psychologist. It's time to put that day behind you and why live with that stress everyday if you don't have to!
Look for a therapist specialising in Timeline Therapy. It is a specific therapy focused on ridding you of negative past emotions and empowering you to move forward with the future.
I do this too, my therapist said it's common in people who suffer anxiety. I would try speaking to someone about it. Also that's a horrific thing to have happened to you, had I been your mother that teacher and your cousins parents would have both been spoken to about it.