I wanted to write a hole long winded post on how my husband's an A-hole who is obviously always wrong, then I realized that I have some issues of my own that make life hard for us........
I am constantly lethargic and struggle to keep my house in a clean and orderly state, I never seem to get enough sleep and I can't keep my kids under control. I have no motivation for life in general, making friends or helping out at the kids school (its a no go zone for me). I am constantly depressed and can never see the good through the bad I am always thinking negative or am waiting for the "other shoe to drop". I am slowing gaining more and more weight I couldn't give a crap about my appearance I am not ambitious or competitive.I couldn't be bothered doing any physical activity and when the kids need help with homework I cringe, I have Anxiety and panic attacks daily just for having to do basic things like call centrelink or paying bills, getting the kids ready for school on time is also a trigger . My husband is the TOTAL OPPOSITE to me but after 14 yrs with me I think I have wore him out with my inability to give a crap for anything! What can I do? How can I find the help to get me motivated for life? I have tried but I just fall back into old paterns I want to have a home my husband isn't embarrassed by and be a wife he can be proud of. Some days I just cry because I feel so lost and scared of life :( I have no family neither does he, we have always just been us and the kids........Maybe more of a rant then a question?
Trying to crawl out of a black hole
Trying to crawl out of a black hole
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Sounds like you could possibly be suffering depression? I'd speak to your gp, best wishes xxx
Have you been to the doctor about your depression, seen a counsellor to talk to someone? Being medicated for depression isn't a bad thing it can give you a whole new lease on life. There are times we all need a little help. Even my own doctor takes anti-depressants. Taking a half hour walk everyday can also make you feel better about yourself.
It sounds a lot like depression. Book yourself a long GP appointment and get a mental health care plan that includes a psychologist.
It will take time to start to feel better but it can get better. Be honest with the psychologist. Is the house really very messy or does hubby have unrealistic expectations that you feel are impossible to live up to. The psychologist can help you find the answers.
I feel the same most of the time, people say the house isn't important but my partner isn't very happy with the house work not getting done. Then I'm lazy because I'm always giving to everyone else. Take some time for yourself, to remember who u are. As a mother I think we put so much effort into everyone else and nothing for ourselves. But if he's criticising you, you are never going to want to make the effort, like I feel, because no matter what, it seems never to count what you tried to do anyway.