unplanned pregnancy and termination UPDATE

Update and clarifications:

Thank you to all who have replied to my earlier post.
Since that post, i was able to see my doctor much earlier than planned.

This would be our fifth child. All four older children have disabilities of varying degrees (physical and mental), but what we are afraid of is the genetic health condition our youngest child has. It would be way too much of a strain on our family and i would never forgive myself if the baby was born with it....it would feel like we were condemming the child to a life of pain.

This baby is very much wanted and already loved...however we feel the right thing to do is to terminate. Even if we were to follow through and the child was healthy, we wouldnt be the parents it needs us to be due to the needs of the other kids. It wouldnt be fair. Our doctor is supportive of our decision.

Needless to say, we are VERY emotional at the moment. We have been offered counselling, which we intend to use.

We would like to honor the baby in some way afterwards, and am open to suggestions.
We have named it Quinn, as it is a unisex name that aptly means 'fifth' and 'wise'.