How do I get through this?? I have my fair share of ups and downs through my young 28yrs of life but I have always been pretty ok! I always told myself that tomorrows a new day!
But this last year has been hell... About December last year my Dad started getting sick and was not getting any better.. At first we put it down to his degenerative muscle disease.. But by jan we found out the main cause was bowel cancer.. By the end of feb we lost him... And we never had the perfect relationship when I was younger as he was a heavy drinker and stubborn as hell but after having children it changed for the better...
But losing him seemed to be the straw that broke the camels back.. And I just cant seem to get through this? Im on anti-depressants, have a psychologist I see monthly, and I am slowly coming to terms with losing dad.. But its everything else that is breaking me... Just life in general, kids, partner lack of energy.. Even daily tasks like doing dishes, and cleaning and doing laundry, I find overwhelming And if I do have day where I actually have motivation to do some of this.. It wrecks me for days after.. Nothing seems to make me happy, I love my 3 kids who are under 7.. But I struggle.. Im not the mum they once had, Im not the partner I once was.. And its bloody hard to fake it constantly
I just don't know what to do anymore.. All I know is I have this dark cloud hovering over me and I am losing hope of ever seeing the light again.. What do I do?
Dealing with Depression?
Dealing with Depression?
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You keep on swimming! You speak to your GP to find out if your on the right meds (it sounds like your not). Then you make changes in your life to give yourself some more breathing room. If that mean an extra day of daycare or asking a friend to take them for a day thats ok. Also reach out to your local council, they offer cheap cleaning services for short periods at reduced costs for people with a disability.If they can't help they might be able to suggest another service. Hang in there it takes time and things can get better
Hang in there Mumma. Im in the same boat. I just look at my kids - 4 of them aged from 5 to 1 - they need me but I struggle to find to energy, drive, compassion, love that they need from me.
Like the other post suggested, get your meds checked. Maybe see your psychologist more frequently or get a new referral if your not completely comfortable.
Get yourself out of the house and take a walk. Breath in the air, take a moment to yourself even talk to your dad.
You will get through this. You'll find the strength you need.