Have you ever felt like you’ve completely lost yourself and nothing makes you happy?
That’s me right now. I’m not unhappy, just numb.
I’m sure I love my daughter and my husband, but I constantly feel like life’s a battle and I’m carrying most of the weight.
I just resigned from a new job that was the opposite culture to what was promised, that overwhelm to add to the daily chores of life and motherhood just couldn’t be sustained.
Now I’m looking at an exact same role in a parallel industry (health to education) but scared of going down the deep hole I did when I was last job hunting.
It’s like I’m just waiting for my RIP day no matter that it’s probably 50 years away.
Have you ever felt like this?
And how did you get out of it?
As I said above, I’m numb, robotic, not upset. Anything I look for passion in, I just can’t find it.
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Sense of hopelessness, not looking forward to anything? Please speak to your GP if you continue to feel like this as it sounds like you may be experiencing a bout of Depression. Behaviourally I would be looking for those things that you used to enjoy doing e.g. sport, craft etc. and ensure you do those things at least once a week pref more. If you truly reflect on what is important, it is not your workplace. They would all replace us in a day. Sounds like you lost a bit of work/life balance and you need to relearn how to have fun and shove that work into the box it belongs in e.g. 9 to 5 and that's it. I burnt out and it took me a good year to recover because I gave my all. I will never put up with an abusive, selfish, manipulating employer again! Even when I was completely burnt out they kept pushing me to give up more of my home life and the less capable employees got left alone. Look after number one before life forces you to <3
Since having my third child 4 years ago I've felt like this on and off... the first 2.5 years were constant... I reached out to gp, went on medication for anxiety and depression and went and talked to a councillor.. things got easier and much better but I still a 1.5 years later (one year off meds) have to work very very hard to make sure I don't slip into that place.. I've had to do lots of self work and I feel like I'll have to forever..
Sending love ❤️