Night out

I went out last night for the first time I'm 2 years. I Bribed my brother with beer to baby sit, I got dressed up, put on make up, my hair looked better then ever, and OMG, I had such a good time. I felt like myself for the first time in a very long time.
It was my partner and myself, and my best friend.
I haven't been well mentally for a long time, I really hate how I look. I come close to shaving all my hair off in a moment of truly hating what I could see. I stopped myself, went to the hairdresser the next day, and got a concaved Bob. It made my curls spring back up, and I was shocked at how great my hair looks, it's suits me. I put on a plunging dress (it was tastefully plunging now tits out). When dancing my partner couldn't keep his eyes off me.... It's been a long time since he looked at me like that.
I was hit on....ALOT. No I didn't flirt back, but it felt so good, like, to be noticed. Every one was in black, I was in a Yellow boohoo style dress. I have convinced myself "who would want THIS" I'm over weight, depressed, unwell mentally and I have other health issues. But last night, I felt so new again. It's made me want to wear more dresses, wear makeup more often, dress a little sexier, not for any one else but for me.