Intimacy

I was in an unhappy marriage for 18 years and stuck it out for my 4 beautiful children...you know the old beliefs - kids are worse off in a broken home blah blah. Long story short, I made the decistion to give my children the broken home and we all thrived - winning....

Five years after my marriage ended I was asked out on a date, we hit it off and were having a fantastic time, while he was totally not my type but he had a special something that I wanted more of - I just wanted to be with him. After three months of dating he was involved in a workplace accident that resulted in the death of a collegue. He was found to absolutely not be at fault however he was diagnosed with PTSD and withdrew from the world. At that time he needed somewhere to live (his job was FIFO) so he moved in with me, I supported him unconditionally, not just because I really liked him but also because there was no one else. He does have 3 adult children, unfortunately they are not a supportive family. He sat on the lounge and stared out the window for 4 years. There was no relationship to talk about, he worked part time but not productively and our relationship became completely plutonic.

I went away for 4 days to visit a family member and came home to a completely different man. It was like someone flicked a switch and he was back to the guy I dated pre accident. It was wonderful and while I totally knew his metal health could decline at any time it didnt. It was wonderful and we were happy again. 2 years went by and we got married. We were happy.

Moving on to today, it has been almost 9 years since the day we met, we are still married and get along great. The issue Im having is that he has stopped any kind of intamacy in our relationship. We hug, we kiss good morning etc but there is no sex.
I am hesitant to say I miss sex because it is so much more than sex for me, there is not really anything that sets us apart from just having a friendship. We have had sex maybe 5 times in the past 3 years. I would like to not here that he has no other symptoms of his PTSD showing at this time.

We made an agreement very early in our relationship that we would never have mercy sex with each other as our previous realtonships were full of that and neither of us wanted to live that again. I have talked to him about it, and his response is he has no libido. So I guess that is that I just have to accept it. I am lonely, I feel rejected, through no choice of my own I am a celebant 55 year old woman. I want to have sex but I am a faithful woman who wont step out of her marriage.

Yes there are toys I can buy, but I like my sexual partner to have a heart beat......what am I supposed to do in this situation??

**He has his yearly men's health check up with no problems detected.