At the moment I don't feel like I can keep up. I can't keep up with work, being a wife, being a mother, being a friend. I feel like EVERYTHING is a chore. I am severely depressed but have been on medication for this for a long time. I'm already over the maximum dosage (the current dosage has been prescribed by my doctor) I'm certainly not suicidal, although I do want life to stop for me, I know my children need me.
My husband and I live more like housemates than a married couple. Although my husband insists he is happy he shows zero emotion and I struggle dealing with that.
I don't even know what I'm asking. I guess it would just be nice to hear from other women who have found themselves in similar positions to what I am currently in. If you are out there how do I overcome this situation to become happy and be the woman/wife/mother/friend I'd like to be?
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Have you ever seen a psychologist? I find I have to make the time for me to see mine. It's not about 'chatting' for me, Or deconstructing my childhood. For me it's about learning techniques, practicing those, and problem solving so I can make lifestyle changes. For me those techniques involve cognitive behaviour therapy, assertiveness training (learning to say no, and not feel shit about it, and making myself heard by the people around me), making general lifestyle changes that as a whole lead me to feeling better.
Sounds like you dont like your situation. Change is really hard, especially when you have the weight of the world on you and zero motivation, but set tiny goals, and push yourself a little, and step by step youll get yourself into a situation you like being in. So first write a list, what do you want to change - time for self, time out and doing things you enjoy to reenergise you is really important so it doesnt feel like a constant drain, romance with husband, time without kids, delegation and roster for home chores, etc.
I completely understand and most days feel this way! You're not alone, it's hard and it sucks. I think the only thing helping me not run away is I try to think of what I'm grateful for, it's my family, the roof over our heads and food in our bellys.
In regard to your husband, can I suggest you go to bras n things, pick up something sexy and surprise him one night. I know the difference it makes in my marriage when I do this.. I know it's just another chore lol but if he's happy it helps and you might enjoy it too. It's nice to play all sexy and playful.
Every day is ground hog day here too hon, I struggle and can't keep up.. my only advice is try and find gratitude, be sexy and have a wine when the kids are in bed haha