Hello friends,
Need some of your thoughts please.
I have lost my happy...
I always seem tired, fed up, angry, bored, lonely and can never find the energy or will to fix these things.. I have no reasons to feel these things! But I can't shake these feelings and feel guilty especially since I have had great opportunities to start fresh, like my son starting kinder ( new friend potential)
Starting a new job ( new friend potential and self worth) or having 4 months off between jobs because my awesome husband says I need me time and time to spend with the kids.
I feel frustrated and annoyed and busy... but bored at the same time!
I'm always unhappy about my situation feeling like , if only my life were different.. more work, I get more work and I need less work, or I need more kids time I get more kids time and I want to be at work.
I have turned into a NO person... a sad sack..
Now I'm thinking... Is this depression?
Am I depressed? Is that why I can't feel my happy anymore?
It's not every day but becoming more days then not.
I don't feel depressed.. (or text book depressed) I just feel like I can't get back up to my happy self again.. even when I know or think I know how I can do it, I have no energy to do it..
P.S I have had bloods taken to rule out any medical reasons for my lack of energy.. ( waiting on results)
Some advice or stories of people who have felt like this would be an amazing help!
Thanks peeps 😊
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I felt like this for a few years up until this year. There were a few things going on, like giving up my career to care for a loved one. I'd had a few things that had really chipped away at my self esteem and although I wasn't stressed and had the appropriate supports in place that I needed physically, emotionally I couldn't shake off my frustration, blah ness, and just couldn't get to my happy. I just was not living life and having fun.
I ended up speaking to a psychologist who has helped me work through and create some balance in my life and this year I have really found my happy. It's meant some things I had to force myself to do somethings that my psychologist suggested, but have actually really paid off and now I'm feeling much happier. I sometimes get restless still but that's less than it was and I do have a healthy outlet for that now.