Hi Kelly & Kristy. I just want to post this incase there are IM's who don't recognise they are in a DV relationship. There seems to be a few from time to time. This is from a friends DV diary, I haven't named her.
Diary of a DV victim.
Every day you wake hoping he will be better.
It's usually a short wait to discovery
I'm so stressed I rarely eat, it doesn't stay down so what's the point?
The dog runs & hides, that's the start usually. Animals know.
He will make a fight out of the smallest things. He can't find his wallet, somehow it's my fault and here comes the abuse.
He calls me disgusting names in front of the children. You are crazy. You are sick. Bitch.
You walk on eggshells & it's exhausting trying to predict when next he will go off.
Jeckal & Hyde. If he isn't Jeckal you should hide.
You get tired. Tired in your soul.
You don't know how long you can hang on.
You don't want to be here anymore. But you do because you love your children & can't bare the thought of being without them.
You start to think it really is all your fault. Like he says.
You can't go to a friend because everyone believes he is a saint & you are lucky to have him.. There are worse men that don't hide what they do to their wives..is what they will say.
Maybe if you give him sex, he will be good for a day.
You start to believe the kids will be better off without you.
You start googling painless ways to die.
You realise it's your daughters birthday next week & stop googling & promise yourself you won't do that to your kids.
You try to concentrate only on them to get thru the day.
Please let me make it through this day.
Rinse and repeat.
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